hi im 36 mother of 3 n diagnosed dec 23. ive had 2 ops n 5 of 6 chemo n finding it very hard at mo. feel so peed off n cant get rid of that feeling. would love to chat. x
Hi everyone, As always you inspire me. I love the look chemochick, perhaps i should be a bit braver and try some makeup, and hey, I will even post pics. Lets start a trend. So lovely to hear from you caz although I am so sorry to hear you are still having a rough time. Gosh I could say something to each and everyone of you but I'd be here all night! I have my 3rd chemo tomorrow - and hope to change the meds. Last time i felt so miserable, not suicidal but so low that i had real concerns. The funny thing is it does say that that is one of the side effects, and the anti nauesua drugs says nausea is one of the side effects. Mmmmm ?
Having trouble sleeping lately too, but seem to have lifted the depression a little. Got my daughter over tomorrow - only last week i had a down day when she came and hardly saw her, this time looks like i will be either asleep or a zombie, it is five past five in the morning right now!
I just wanted to call in and say thank you to you all for always inspiring me and making me feel that i am not alone. I have mostly good days but on the bad ones it is to all of you i turn as i really do feel that only you here understand. The family are good but it is not the same as knowing someone really does understand. I have been wearing the new turban with a liner as the little stubble is still falling out, eyebrows are very thin. I haven't worn the scarfs with them yet, but thought maybe i would be brave and venture to chemo with the turban and scarf and a little makeup. I have not yet stepped outside the door without the wig! But as always, you have all inspired me and small steps i hope will lead to bigger ones. anyway, i should be thinking yipee half way through the chemo (nearly!). Radiotherapy worries me more ! The usual five weeks and then an intensive whole breast. I just wondered if anyone else had had this particualr regime.
By the way Tony, your words about bald women - I heard something similar from antoher guy in the week. Sinead O'connor - she's a beauty, so maybe there's hope! Thanks again to you all for your encouragement and sharing your experiences with me.
Love to you all, and Caz, thank you for your words, good luck at the hospital, give them hell! And we will all be thinking of you.
had 5th chemo monday feel really rubbish being sick despite anti sick tabs so tired and tearful hate givin in to this, thought i had managed to fight it all way.
i want to do all xmas stuff and make it lovely for my lovely family but not able to do everything i usually can. i know everyone understands but i dnot want this i want to b my ususal manic self!!
sorry just ranting my husband is working away for few days and breaks his neck to get back for me its not fair. my daughter hates seeing her mum unwell but is so brave !i hate what this is doin i feel i am letting everyone down they all keep saying how brave and strong i am but i am not i feel weak and stupid for not being able to keep goin !!i know chemo is nearly over but i want it finished xx
sorry to go on but i dnot want to do this to family and friends xx
I know I pop up here, now and again with odd comments, but reading the various posts about hair loss, make up etc, reminded me of a major turning point with my partner, Sarah's "look" during and after chemo.
Firstly she was(and still is) nutty and will try anything. She wore the 70s "stuff" in the 70s, in the 80 big hair, head bands, leg warmers, rolled up sleeves and so on took over the look over. These changes carried on. Changes here and there. Then the news of breast cancer last year, then the op, chemo and her hair fell out. She thought her world had fallen apart. She had hats and mad colour scarfs, as posted about earlier, but one day we were in a waiting room, flicking through various mags and she came across a photo of fashion model Amber Rose. She banged the mag on my lap and said "see that. I'm going for it!"
Sarah is not 6 foot tall, but boy did she grab the inspiration. Have a look ladies. Please. It might give you an idea or two.
Remember also the "Look good feel better" program!
Uhmm interesting topic...like everyone here..mine is secondary breast cancer spread in the pleural of my lovely lungs! I had chemo 2 years ago and my gud feelings thinks i will have more next year.Is a tough journey for everyone...partners,family, friends...I just hope they find a cure for every single cancer. I dont call it cancer ..i call it..."small C", Is so many topics that i can talk about this subject from trying to find a new job living with small c, to check ups and ct scans, hormone medications, etc I am a fighter like everyone here..but sometimes we have blue days....We need to keep being positive guys and I think this is why i coming here too..doesnt matter if i get scared of the b c words...I thinking to start to write a diary but i am lazy...at least for the past 6 months but i am going to try to back to be the active person that i was before...will see....
It seems like things are getting on top of us all.Nina you sound like a mirror image of me at the moment.Christmas is my thing,I am like a child and I love it but I am sitting on the settee in my P,J,s because dressing takes up too much energy chomping at the bit .I know I cant expect more as 10 days ago I had emergency heart procedure but I find it soooooooooooo hard to slow down,even after 3 1/2 years of this.We really must be kinder to ourselves and accept these changes but it is so difficult.
Have you tried changing the anti sickness tabs?There are a few different ones and be sure to take them before because they dont work once the sickness has started.,which sorry you probably know.I hate what I am doing to my family as well,I want to be helping my daughter with the grandchildren while she goes shopping but I cant even lift the one year old.But we will all get there.Poor Lonie has been going through terrible symptoms since i can remember.being on here/
We must all get ready for a joint Christmas drink at a set time over Christmas and dont feel bad about coming on here and ranting ,it is why we are all here and as you say it takes the pressure off family.
I hope you get your meds sorted,it drags you down so much feeling low all the time.
Hello and welcome to the place no-one wants to be.
Have you tried writing a blog.If you go onto other topics i will try to bring it to the top .It is really helpful to read and keep note of what you have gone through.Are you on treatment now?
Hi nina, & girs oh and a few guys lol nina, youre not letting anyone down, youre just trying to get on with it and its difficult when you feel sick, honestly it does get better, im nearly finished 3rd week of Rads, 3 more to go, I feel grand, its a breeze compared to chemo, my hair is rapidly coming in (with a little bit of grey) cant wait till i can get a wee crop and colour, my boob is a bit red with the rads but its fine, roll on 2011. Just wanted to come on and say things do get easier I promise, I know im one of trhe lucky ones and my cancer is now been removed and hasnt spread and fingers crossed its gone forever. Take care everyone, I'll be back on before xmas, but if i miss anyone, have a wonderful christmas and a very prosperous new year xx
Hi Rose, its sat my birthday, but thanks very much. I did mention using aloe vera but hosp really against it, they only want me using simple soap and aqueous creme, until at least 2 weeks after treatment is finished, cant believe how quickly my treatment has went by, im blessed to have been in touch with so many nece people on this forum xxx
just wanted to say no 5 was my worst time, n was when i started this page. so glad i did. it might help if you go back to the beginning of this thread. it might help you understand more about the way you are feeling. wish i had a magic wand. or a cure would do!
feeling sad myself n fed up with it all n bit teary. n my chemo finished months ago. roll on january n the end of chemo.
