Hi everyone its been a long time since Ive been on AGAIN because the computer has been playing up AGAIN and its made me very  . could do with a new one but this time of year its an expense we can't afford! I've been reading back a few posts but it will take me forever to catch up so wondered if you could all just update me on how you are all doing!! Its lovely to be back in the community I've been on a bit of a rollercoaster last two months and am waiting for the straight jacket to arrive lol!! Seriously does anyone else get really angry!! My anger has been uncontrollable at times with me even smashing a wall and it has really upset me!!

Please be intouch

LOTS AND LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU ALL

Louise

Hi Louise

Sorry to hear you are having problems with your computer and your emotions.I dont get angry because I find it just leaves me feeling worse in the long run,plus my last treatment has damaged my heart so at the moment I cant get stressed.Waiting to see the heart specialist in 2 weeks and when he gives me a magic pill I will be fine.You have been through so much for so long.Can you have some sort of therapy or a massage or reiki treatment to help?Being on here should help to unload so rant away and let us help.No more wall hitting!!!

Stay strong

Rose xx

Hi Lonie and you other lovely ladies.

Caroline get back on here as soon as you feel able,we miss you and as I am extremely nosey I want to know that you are OK

Well girls I have had a very exciting time .Before i start remember that me BC was an extremely aggressive blighter so I am not a normal case so dont panic.

As you know I have had problems with my heart since a previous treatment and was due to see the specialist next Monday but last Thurs night i felt grotty and vomited when I stood up so in the morning my husband rang our GP and he came out at 9 and my BP was 154/50 so he rang the ambulance and I was admitted with blue light flashing,sooooo exciting straight into the procedure room where 2 doctors and 2 nurses were waiting .I watched as a doctorexplained everything on a scanner while another used a needle into my pericardium around my heart and drained off just under 1 litre of fluid.How on earth can that much be there ?My heart immediately started to fill the space again and I was in the ward eating tea by 4 oclock,feeling drained (excuse the pun) but able to breath.How good is the NHS?So its on with the new chemo and only good things allowed for us all in 2011.I now have to try to put on weight for the first time in my life so When its time for Christmas pud I wont be doing the usual "oh I.ll just have another sprout coz I had a mince pie 3 days ago",it will be yes with loads of cream.!!!

Hope you are keeping strong girls and things will work out for you Kylie

Rose xxx

Oh Rose, what a time you have had! i agree about the wonderful NHS, I can't fault them. You always make me smile - I'm trying to lose a little bit of weight - just a couple of pounds or four, would you like them? It's these horrid steriods but who knows - maybe they'll change my meds

The sun was shining bright here today and so while the house was empty I did all the little bits and pieces that needed doing (knackered now) and then on the news looked at the snow elsewhere. funny how our minds become one tracked - all i could think of was thank goodness it doesn't get too bad here- I'll be ableto get to chemo next week. not even worried about xmas shopping. How are you all coping where you are? and yes CAZ WHERE R U? we miss you and hope you are okay.

Love sara

Hi everyone

Rose i am so sorry u have had this recent incicdent you have already been thru so much !u r amazing ! i hope u dnot mind me saying but when i was first diagnosed u helped me so much u r always the first person to help others i hope we all help u xxxx i think of u a lot thnk u x

how is everyone how is caz ?

lee caz colly patricia i am so keen to here your news xx care so much about how u all r ??

iam ok i have to say hate the chemo dread it (next is monday 13th dec) iam watchin footie (iam footie mad ) wont say team in case u go off me xx

thanks for add on fac ebook xx1

looking forward to christmas and spoiling my wonderful family they have been thru so much in last few months !

I think they go thru at laest the same if not more anx xx

love and hugs to all xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Nina,Its strange but talking to people on here actually helps me although it seems i am helping others.When i first came on here there were a handfull of people but now there are too many to answer.

I am lucky because my husband does not watch footie but our cousins son now plays for Cardiff so we are duty bound to watch them if he is playing.I love Christmas as well,I,m like a child!!!Never been bothered with New Year though.Not much snow here in Wales so we are very lucky.and can get around.

My gaandchildren are coming down today,havent seen them for a week.When they couldnt come down because i wasnt well and they had a cold my grandson(3)said  well Ill only talk to gramps then and do sign language to gran(I think all children should be taught sign language in school.I used to work with people with special needs)Children say such lovely things

Hope you are all coping with the weather

take care girls

Rose xx

Rose you have been through the mill, but as always, upbeat and strong, youre an inspiration. Lee wish I had a wee dog, mine died 2 years ago and i keep saying im going to get another one but im scared the next one isnt as good natured as last, anyway maybe one day. Im going into my third week of radiotherapy and so far so good, its the travelling in and out every day and if you ladies & tony watch the news you'll see just how bad the weather is up here in Bonnie Scotland, on monday it took us nearly 7 hours to get back from hosp, a journey that normally takes 40 mins ish, poor voluntary driver, he only gets 35 pence per mile, I'll need to get him something nice, we had 7 mint humbugs between us lol, anyway got in safe and sound, hope you are all well, Caz where are you. Again if anyone wants to add me on facebook that would be great- Colette Jameson   xxx

Hi to all of you hope you are all ok!

Lee I finished my chemo at the end of September so it hasn't took to long for my hair to cover my head!!

Your little Bella sounds so gorgeous, they are hard work though aren't they we have three dogs Paddy Poppy and Polly the last two are jack russells and the little boy is a jack crossed with a bision frise so they are all little live wires. what has Bella thought of the snow. Paddy ends up with snowballs on his legs!!! Where abouts are you it soundslovely by the sea.

I'm sure the others would like to have a meet up but not everyone might have seen what I have wrote so perhaps me and you could try to sort that it would be so lovely to meet everyone

Take care!!!

LoveLou

Hi Colly

What a nightmare you've had getting to and from hospital the snow is lovely but when its stops the country in its tracks it can be so stressful!! You could have done with a hot toddy! I haven't had radio how  is itmaking you feel and will all your treatment be complete when this is done? You will be able to start 2011 off as you mean to go on. I should have had an injection at my GPs last week but it was cancelled because of the snow but they said they didn't have it anyway had I got it which I hadn't so rebooked my apptment for yesterday and phoned me again to say the injection had not arrived I was so annoyed (but not to the anger stage!!) Im suppose to have it the same time every month so I will be two weeks late and when things like this happen I get so worried! Anyway I've decided I amgoing to get the injection from the hospital and my partner was shown how to do it so he might do the next one - just another thing for me to hav a go at him about haha

Take care

Love Lou

PS would you be up for a meeting next year

Hi Rose how are you today ok I hope.

You are an inspiration as I have said before and personally I am always encouraged by the replys you make to me. aTake care and a big hug

Nina and Sara I don't think I have said a personal hello tou you since you started postin so HELLO. I'm so glad that we all have each other. We are all at different stages in our journeys but it is so nice to share the good and the bad times on here don't you think.

If there is anyone else I have missed I will get you next time big hugs to you all and keep in touch as much as you can over this festive period!! Lets all have a good Christmas and a good start to 2011

Did anyone see me  saying about a possible meeting up next year Let us know what you think

Love Lou

hi all

hope things going ok lee i have border collie called Bella we have only had her 2 years she is rescue dog (was abandoned on a road the a27 !! she is fantastic and on my bad days we cuddle up on the sofa!)

I am ok this week my mum has been over (she lives in jersey thats where i am from ) it hard for her to see me on my chemo week but at least she can see iam ok after . we are going to jersey for christmas the first time in 20 years . bella is coming on ferry hope she ok she is a wimp xx

i cant wait for chemo to be over only 2 more to go. i hate seeing my family worry so much about me hate the way it makes me feel .

my husband has very stressful job and wish i could make homelife stress free

i am really looking forward to christmas if this has taught me anything its enjoy life !!

i went on work xmas do last week i wasnt looking forward to it but it was lovely everyone said i looked well and they love the wig its better than my real hair and they said it makes me look younger!bloody cheek!! looks like i will have to have it like that when grows. we have another xmas do 2morrow posh frock black tie thing hope me wig holds up !!

colly u inspired me to have my eyelashes done and it really helps make u feel better i have some but bit thin ,i know they might all go but this should help me get thru party season without looking too scary!!

take care all according to caz blog updated begining of nov she was still struggling hope she is ok.

hi to u too lou (god iam a poet !!)like u sos sos glad we have eachother would be up to meet not sure where every one is from i live on south coast near bognor regis xx

love and hugs nina xxxxxx

hi nina

how can people just abandon there pets like that makes me wonder and it really annoys me, but by the sounds of it  you and she seem to be meant for each other, you certainly are right about what the chemo does to you cos i have just finished my first dose of it and i can say i did not expect to feel like i did but i am fine now so hopefully the next treatment which starts on the 18th dec will be a bit easier to handle but at the end of the day you have to have it so,we will just have to grin and bear it, as it happens i have my works nite out to look forward to this weekend as well so i am looking forward to that and seeing the lads i work with and letting them see that there is plenty life left in me yet,so enjoy your night out and have a lovely xmas and hopefully a happy new year.

   jeff alias (dad1929)

hi nina

how can people just abandon there pets like that makes me wonder and it really annoys me, but by the sounds of it  you and she seem to be meant for each other, you certainly are right about what the chemo does to you cos i have just finished my first dose of it and i can say i did not expect to feel like i did but i am fine now so hopefully the next treatment which starts on the 18th dec will be a bit easier to handle but at the end of the day you have to have it so,we will just have to grin and bear it, as it happens i have my works nite out to look forward to this weekend as well so i am looking forward to that and seeing the lads i work with and letting them see that there is plenty life left in me yet,so enjoy your night out and have a lovely xmas and hopefully a happy new year.

   jeff alias (dad1929)