hi im 36 mother of 3 n diagnosed dec 23. ive had 2 ops n 5 of 6 chemo n finding it very hard at mo. feel so peed off n cant get rid of that feeling. would love to chat. x
I know exactly how you are feeling - after my op (infection too) I cried all the time worrying my husband and children so much - I just couldn't stop - sometimes for days. I have always had small boobs and really thought it wouldn't bother me too much having my right one removed - how wrong was I *_BUT_ *please believe me it will get better. I still have a few tears now and again but nothing like at the beginning. I am not even sure I will ever have reconstruction. I bought M&S mastectomy bras with matching underwear and never look at myself naked - which is something I will have to get over for future checking. I had my last chemo last Weds and still feeling yuck but knowing at least for now the poison is over. You will feel better slowly - although your cleavage may be important its not the whole of you and never would have been even without this illness. You are a lovely person who certainly helped me in the past and now you need to think only of you.
My really strong brave husband has his reversal for rectal cancer this Thursday and we are both looking forward to Xmas. OK we are not the same people we were a year ago either inside or out but we have to make the most of every single second of our lives whatever we look like on the outside - not easy but we will get there and God willing so will you and your family
You will get through all of this and be happy again - it just takes time, love, faith and a little bit of luck
you have been thru so much remember how much u have coped with already !! and survived and u will survive this in every sense!!!
I havent had mastectomy so i wont pretent to know excatly how u feel but like u i have always has big boobs and it is part of us my scars arent great and my right boob is still blue green from the dye they used. i used to do alot exercise which i not able to do so have put on weight despite feeling sick from chemo. and of course there is the bald head ! again my hair always defined me redhead !! I am not comparing any of this to what u going thru just saying that not only are we coping with this crap disease we are coping with a huge change in body image and self esteem and confidence of sexuality!! i hate lookin in mirror to try to wear more make up !it is completely normal to feel sad I KNOW U WILL GET THRU THIS u seem such fab person who has coped with so much!! You also need to remember that when u have an infection anywhere u are much lower anyway so its double whammy!!!
do u think speaking to someone independant would help ie mc millian helpline only that u can say things u might not want to talk to family about ?
once the infection is gone u will feel much better and u can get some pretty underwear darlin u are so in all our thoughts
please come here any time if u want my email please let me know xxx
just wanted to touch base and let you all know Im starting to feel better now, it has been a long week just existing really, My dear Caz your pain is felt by all of us and I guess all anyone of us can do is listen and try to lift your spirits, I hate my body at the moment which is so wrong as its my body that is fighting this awful illness, wether you are religious or not we have to agree our bodies are amazing, so very intricate in every way , there is not one single piece of machinery known to man that is this intricate yet machines break down all the time, no one piece of machinery is used in so many ways as our bodies are.
Many of us forget what a miracle life is until we are faced with its loss.I get so low sometimes thinking of the months I have spent feeling sick and the scars that now form a permanent part of my makeup, yet in my heart I know that Im loved so very much by my family and friends no matter what I look like and this time will pass and happier days will come again and all this will be one day a distant memory just enough to remind me how lucky I am and I dont just mean surviving I mean lucky to have the ability to walk and talk and laugh and cry and hundreds of other less obvious things that our bodies do for us every day without recognition. To really appreciate happiness we must experience sorrow so for each one of us our days of happiness are just around the corner and noone will appreciate or enjoy them more than we will.
Hi Lee, wise and true words from yourself as usual, you always seem to know the right things to say & caz Im not always positive, every ache or pain I have I think the cancer has spread, its my amazing partner that gets me through. I think your very brave to have went along to this wedding to be honest I really havent went out that much during my treatment, we have been invited to a few parties, but i never felt up to going as they always seemed to fall just a few days after chemo when i felt at my worst and i dont feel comfy wearing my wig. I had to go into work the other day for a team meeting and dreaded it, i wore my wig and to be honest people who didnt know my hair had fallen out just thought id had low lights lo, but i still feel uncomfortable wearing it. I havent had my breasts removed only a lump, but you are here and youve been so positive at times, its only natural to have off days. I just got my appt through yest for my radiotherapy which starts 25th nov for 6 weeks so will run over xmas, but at least xmas is on a sat so i wont have to go lol. Speak to you all soon, lots of love coming your way, xxx
its coming on this site that makes me feel so humble, being amongst such strong women makes me appreciate everything around me and thank god Im alive.
Im so glad you are feeling better and you must tell me when your hair starts growing back to a stage when it is just a short cut.
Its my birthday on thursday.....43 ahhhh lol anyway Im having a friend do my false lashes for me for the friday and my mum has bought me a new dress (loose and baggy to hide the weight gain) and Friday night ima goin out to paint the town red....well maybe pinkish so wish me luck girls this is my first night out since my op in June and Im terrified !!!
If you read in the newspaper ....headline bald headed woman found waving false breast at passers by singing show me the way to go home...dont worry its only me ....lol xx
lol happy birthday when it comes and have a fab night out. What kind of false lashes are you getting and how long do they last? Im not into these glue on ones but dunno if i have enough of my own to get others added to if that makes sense? x
Being as the site is closing down for a couple of days I will wish you a happy birthday for Thursday.I have a mental picture of you being loaded into the police car!!!You made me giggle.Have a lovely time.
Hi to all you lovely ladies and Tony - great to hear from you
I have not been on for a while and it is great to read that Colly and Lee are at the end of the chemo and what lovely words you have to say to all. Sorry Caz that you have had a bit of a rough time, but like Nina says the infection is pulling you down and making you feel worse. Hope that clears up asap.
Happy Birthday Lee and you go for it girl.
I go for my 5th chemo on thursday, the last one took a while to get over but at least I was not sick! I feel I have turned a corner mentally and feeling quite normal if you know what I mean. I even attempted to do a bit of gardening the other day but got stung by a wasp which was hiding in the gardeing glove!
I just wanted to say i'm so sorry i wasn't able to come on and thank you for your replies, really meant alot. It's been an awful week and my computer is broken! I also was phoned by my GP who found out that something is wrong and that a team of doctors are having a meeting about me?
I hope you're all doing ok? Always thinking of you and wishong you well!
