hi im 36 mother of 3 n diagnosed dec 23. ive had 2 ops n 5 of 6 chemo n finding it very hard at mo. feel so peed off n cant get rid of that feeling. would love to chat. x
Hi all, i was feeling fed up with a streaming cold, day out in leicester tomorrow - typical time to feel under the weather, and of course i want to be well to start chemo next week, I thought I'd come say hi, and suddenly theres a last chemo - well done Lee, lots of love and best wishes. colly as always with such sound advice and caz who never fails to express herself without being depressing.
Anyway i thought you'd all like a giggle. i was telling my grandaughter off today and as i bent down to tell her not to do something, my blooming tooth sprang out of my mouth like a cartoon character,. The funniest thing was, the whole room went silent because everyone was afraid to laugh wihich just set me off. i keep having fits of giggles when I think about it. And as the new plate keeps giving me gip, i boought some difflam stuff today. when i took the tooth out to rinse, i discovered what the problem was, the part that sits on my gum is textured and damn sharp, so it was even more funny to watch me with a nail file sanding it smooth and trying it back on inbetween fits of giggles.....i have decided to use fixadent tomorrow... just in case......
I really sorry to bother you but I wondered if you had any advice for me?
I had an ultrasound today by a nurse, she was really rude to me and made me feel like rubbish, she felt my dimple and told me I was tensing so I had to show her that I wasn't, she then admitted it was a deep dimple, the. Squeezed some blood out. She did t tell me anything about the ultrasound but has sent me for a genetics referral and another appointment in December? She said I may have a biopsy but may not.
Really dont know how to feel as I thought if it was nothing she would of told me or if it was something. Stuck in limbo presuming nothings wrong as she was rude and laid back.
The DNA tests are because Ive lost a lot of close family to cancer and already had it myself.
They didn't ask me about my drugs which my Gastro consultant phones me up an told me to stop taking because of the risk of cancer.
firstly, NO ONE should treat you like that. A quiet word in the consultants ear usually does the trick, or write a note just explaining that you were scared and worried and your treatment that day didn't help. It could just be the nurse had her own awful worries, but if not, then a short note or quiet word should be enough to stop it happening to someone else.
I am sorry you have already had dealings with this disease, and we here all know that recurrance is something we dread, but as so many of the ladies here have said, the doctors would prefer you to go to them 10 times unnecessariy than miss something, and you cannot help your fears no matter how rational you try to be.
There is no point in telling you not to worry - because the truth is you will. But worrying will not change the result, it will just take up your precious energy and set your mind spiralling into the thoughts and feelings you had when you were diagnosed orginally. I am not a medical person, but i do know that aside from your greatest fear, there are so many other things such as infected cysts, blocked ducts and so forth that cause strange symptoms. Try to take strength from the reassurance that aside from the one snotty nurse you had on this visit, the rest of the team are truely dedicated and will guide you through whatever caused this and treatments with your full co-operation.
Try also to remember that although it is difficult, when you are worried try and do something posiitve, time spent worrying is time not spent doing what you enjoy with those you love and have fun with. it also causes wrinkles!
I do wish you well as everyone here will, and if you look back over some of the posts there will be a wealth of love and support in the messages that I hope will help you as much as they helped me. Please do come back and tell us how you got on. When do you get your results? if you write to the department about your treatment you could ask for the results, they will then call you in. The drugs you are taking could maybe affect other tissues in respect of swellings infections and so on, but this I cannot answer, you will need to speak to your GP if you need reassurance.
My email - simplysara1 then the at sign followed by hotmail dot com, if you would like to talk, or try your local MacMillian - if you have had cancer (and it doesn't mean to say this time it is) they will understand your fears. It really does help to talk, and they have far more expereince and knowledge than I can give you.
You seem to be in a pretty bad place at the moment....... and I'm sorry to hear you had such a bad time at your ultrasound.
My advice is that you ring up your breast care unit and tell them what happened, tell them that you are stuck in limbo and ask to see a breast care nurse....... you are entitled to speak to one..... and hopefully she will be able to put your mind at rest and maybe even get you in to see someone.
The waiting is a nightmare..... if you had been told something definite, it would be easier to cope with.... the not knowing is the worst.
Don't apologise for bothering us, it's no bether to help someone who is in a similar position... fear is something that you don't have to deal with alone.
Nasty infection is kicking my a*s at the moment........ the right side has healed up lovely... no more fluid... but the left side was full and needed draining, because I have been so poorly this last week, I expected the fluid to come out like it did last week (like cold tea) but when my surgeon pulled the needle out, nothing came out of the canula, but as she tipped it down, a thick gloopy drop hit the dish, and then she started to panic, she attatched a srynge and started to pull out a load of thick goop... it was like mud... she said my chest wall should be bright red by the state of the infection.
So I am now on some heavy duty antibiotics and I have to go back on Friday... if the infection continues she is going to put a mini drain in.
And to top it all... the dress I ordered to wear to this wedding, didn't turn up
But my gorgeous husband saved the day.... this afternoon he took me to a local boutique and bout me a total new outfit...... When we walked into the shop, the lady asked if she could help me, I explained what I needed, that I was going to a wedding but was struggling with my stupid fake boobs, to which she answered, "Mine is ok, I just pop it into my bra and nobody knows the difference" she picked out a gorgeous outfit and I cant wait to wear it tomorrow.
Dave is going to take pictures of me wearing it and I will put it up on here for you to see
I will pop back on friday and tall you how it all went.
Well done on the outfit,your husband sounds a gem,i bet you will look knockout. It was fate that your dress didnt come so that you would meet the assistant Have an absolutely brilliant day and hopefully that infection will go soon.
Hi Tony, no news is good news lol. I personally am fine, finished chemo nearly 4 weeks ago and starting radiotherapy on 25/11m so even tho it will run over xmas thankfully xmas is a sat so i'll not need to go that day lol. Got a few aches and pains but think thats cause i need a new mattress which has actually arrived today thank goodness, hope you are well. Col x
First let me say well done Colly... you seem so positive about everything.
Well, I went to the wedding.... what a nightmare,... The wedding itself was a farce, the bride was inside with all the guests and the groom was outside with his ex wife.... I stuggled so much more than I thought I would... cleavages everywhere.... i couldn't stop from crying........ The infection is still kicking my behind.... but I am back at the hospital tomorrow at 4 so hopefully something will get sorted
I seem to be really down at the moment, I really can't get used to my altered body image.... when I try to talk about it, I just cry... and I can't seem to get any better.
I just don't know which way to turn at the moment .... I guess I never realised how much my cleavage was part of who I am.... and now I feel like I am not that person anymore........ I hate being such a misery guts..... but I see no way out until the reconstruction next year.
Am I going to be this unhappy until my reconstruction.... or will it get better?
