Hi,

I am sorry to butt into your discussion but just wanted to wish you all well.

You all seem like tough cookies and am touched, truly.

I am currently waiting, I have my breast clinic appointment on 27th oct and really nervous, not eating or sleeping much to be honest but then I don't eat much anyway lol.

Really don't know what to expect with this appointment just that I will probably be having an ultrasound as I'm only 24.

The reason I went to the GP was because I have bloody nipple discharge and a rather deep dimple. I can't help but think the worst but do understand there are benign causes for this out there. Just glad my GP took me seriously.

Do you mind if I ask how you ladies felt at this stage? Am I insane or am I being normal?

Best wishes everyone

Kylie xxx

No Kylie,

You are not insane..... first let me say you are very sensible to see your doctors immediately.... you would be surprised how many think they are too young so don't bother.

I know this is a very scarey thing to try and come to terms with... and the waiting is the hardest bit.... If I had to discribe how I felt when I was waiting for appointments and tests then I think the only word I could come up with is....LOST... Very emotional and scared to death.... but I now know that all these feelings are perfectly normal.

If you are worried about what to expect, why not ring up your breast clinic and ask them.... they are normaly really good and have no problem explaining what you should expect.

When my doctor refered me to our local breast clinic, I was examined by a lady doctor, then I had to have a mammogram and an ultrasound scan..... I would suggest you take somebody with you... maybe your partner / Mum / friend just for a bit of moral support.... but I have to say that the breast care unit and all it's staff were brilliant and really did well to calm all my fears.

If you have any questions at all, please feel free to come here and ask, there is always somebody who has been in the situation you are in and able to offer help and advice.... we are all here for each other.

Take care honey... and try not to imagine the worst (easier said than done)

Love Caz xxx

Great News Patricia

Im so pleased, its time you and your family had a break and got back to just enjoying each other and enjoying life.

Lots of love Lee xx

Hi Caz

you know you really have come so far and done so well and Im really please you have such a wonderful husband by your side,think of this outing as your next step to recovery, take control again, you've battled this dreadful disease and your not about to let it take over your life, you fought this to live ...so get living and dont worry about anyone staring or saying anything because so far all I have seen from people is a lot of love and compassion, this touches so many peoples lives you just dont realise it.

Your a wonderful person Caz and you are a survivor! dont ever forget that.

P.S

Had last chemo today!!!!! so Im off to bed now for some much needed r & r hopefully I shall catch up with you all in a couple of days.

Much love to everyone

Lee xx

Congratulations Lee,

Last chemo, What a milestone! I am really pleased for you...... get your head down and get some rest honey.

And thank you for the advice.... You're right..... I had a double mastectomy so I could live.... So it's about time I started living.

Take care honey.

Love Caz xxx

Hi lee bet your glad your chemo is now finished, I know I am mine is finished, hair growing back but eyes still streaming as no lashes at bottom, cream hasn't worked so far. Chat soon col x

Caz you go girl and have a fab day. Col x

Hi Colly,

I dont know if this will help you but when my eyes were like yours I had a gel called ViscoTears(or viscous tears gel)Which really helped.I smooth vaseline on my eyes at night as they stick together otherwise .Hope you get some relief soon,these seemingly small things really annoy after a while!

Rose xxx

Hi all, i was feeling fed up with a streaming cold, day out in leicester tomorrow - typical time to feel under the weather, and of course i want to be well to start chemo next week, I thought I'd come say hi, and suddenly theres a last chemo - well done Lee, lots of love and best wishes. colly as always with such sound advice and caz who never fails to express herself without being depressing.

Anyway i thought you'd all like a giggle. i was telling my grandaughter off today and as i bent down to tell her not to do something, my blooming tooth sprang out of my mouth like a cartoon character,. The funniest thing was, the whole room went silent because everyone was afraid to laugh wihich just set me off. i keep having fits of giggles when I think about it. And as the new plate keeps giving me gip, i boought some difflam stuff today. when i took the tooth out to rinse, i discovered what the problem was, the part that sits on my gum is textured and damn sharp, so it was even more funny to watch me with a nail file sanding it smooth and trying it back on inbetween fits of giggles.....i have decided to use fixadent tomorrow... just in case......

lots of love all,

sara xx

DIY tooth repairs.if you had been filming that you would have won £250 on you,ve been framed!!

Hope you are coping with everything,you always sound really happy.Plenty of vitamins to build you up for next week.

Rose xxx

Good afternoon ladies,

I hope you're all ok?

I really sorry to bother you but I wondered if you had any advice for me?

I had an ultrasound today by a nurse, she was really rude to me and made me feel like rubbish, she felt my dimple and told me I was tensing so I had to show her that I wasn't, she then admitted it was a deep dimple, the. Squeezed some blood out. She did t tell me anything about the ultrasound but has sent me for a genetics referral and another appointment in December? She said I may have a biopsy but may not.

Really dont know how to feel as I thought if it was nothing she would of told me or if it was something. Stuck in limbo presuming nothings wrong as she was rude and laid back.

The DNA tests are because Ive lost a lot of close family to cancer and already had it myself.

They didn't ask me about my drugs which my Gastro consultant phones me up an told me to stop taking because of the risk of cancer.

I'm so sorry for ranting.

Take care

Xxx

Hi Kylieann,

firstly, NO ONE should treat you like that. A quiet word in the consultants ear usually does the trick, or write a note just explaining that you were scared and worried and your treatment that day didn't help. It could just be the nurse had her own awful worries, but if not, then a short note or quiet word should be enough to stop it happening to someone else.

I am sorry you have already had dealings with this disease, and we here all know that recurrance is something we dread, but as so many of the ladies here have said, the doctors would prefer you to go to them 10 times unnecessariy than miss something, and you cannot help your fears no matter how rational you try to be.

There is no point in telling you not to worry - because the truth is you will. But worrying will not change the result, it will just take up your precious energy and set your mind spiralling into the thoughts and feelings you had when you were diagnosed orginally. I am not a medical person, but i do know that aside from your greatest fear, there are so many other things such as infected cysts, blocked ducts and so forth that cause strange symptoms. Try to take strength from the reassurance that aside from the one snotty nurse you had on this visit, the rest of the team are truely dedicated and will guide you through whatever caused this and treatments with your full co-operation.

Try also to remember that although it is difficult, when you are worried try and do something posiitve, time spent worrying is time not spent doing what you enjoy with those you love and have fun with. it also causes wrinkles!

I do wish you well as everyone here will, and if you look back over some of the posts there will be a wealth of love and support in the messages that I hope will help you as much as they helped me. Please do come back and tell us how you got on. When do you get your results? if you write to the department about your treatment you could ask for the results, they will then call you in. The drugs you are taking could maybe affect other tissues in respect of swellings infections and so on, but this I cannot answer, you will need to speak to your GP if you need reassurance.

My email - simplysara1 then the at sign followed by hotmail dot com, if you would like to talk, or try your local MacMillian - if you have had cancer (and it doesn't mean to say this time it is) they will understand your fears. It really does help to talk, and they have far more expereince and knowledge than I can give you.

best wishes

sara xxx

Hi Kylieann,

firstly, NO ONE should treat you like that. A quiet word in the consultants ear usually does the trick, or write a note just explaining that you were scared and worried and your treatment that day didn't help. It could just be the nurse had her own awful worries, but if not, then a short note or quiet word should be enough to stop it happening to someone else.

I am sorry you have already had dealings with this disease, and we here all know that recurrance is something we dread, but as so many of the ladies here have said, the doctors would prefer you to go to them 10 times unnecessariy than miss something, and you cannot help your fears no matter how rational you try to be.

There is no point in telling you not to worry - because the truth is you will. But worrying will not change the result, it will just take up your precious energy and set your mind spiralling into the thoughts and feelings you had when you were diagnosed orginally. I am not a medical person, but i do know that aside from your greatest fear, there are so many other things such as infected cysts, blocked ducts and so forth that cause strange symptoms. Try to take strength from the reassurance that aside from the one snotty nurse you had on this visit, the rest of the team are truely dedicated and will guide you through whatever caused this and treatments with your full co-operation.

Try also to remember that although it is difficult, when you are worried try and do something posiitve, time spent worrying is time not spent doing what you enjoy with those you love and have fun with. it also causes wrinkles!

I do wish you well as everyone here will, and if you look back over some of the posts there will be a wealth of love and support in the messages that I hope will help you as much as they helped me. Please do come back and tell us how you got on. When do you get your results? if you write to the department about your treatment you could ask for the results, they will then call you in. The drugs you are taking could maybe affect other tissues in respect of swellings infections and so on, but this I cannot answer, you will need to speak to your GP if you need reassurance.

My email - simplysara1 then the at sign followed by hotmail dot com, if you would like to talk, or try your local MacMillian - if you have had cancer (and it doesn't mean to say this time it is) they will understand your fears. It really does help to talk, and they have far more expereince and knowledge than I can give you.

best wishes

sara xxx