Hi Everyone don't knw if you have missed me but I have certainly missed all you lot and have noticed a few new recruits. I haven't had a computer since July it had something seriously wrong with it and it has drove me mad not being able to chat!!! I haven't had chance to do a complete read through everything so could some of you bring me up to date with a few things. I'v noticed all your fab photos though you all look stunning and I hope you are all keeping as well as you can I'v missed you all terribly.

A quick up date on me! I had a scan in August after 3 lots of FEC and 3 lots of pacitaxol and gemcitibine. To cut long story short it has shrunk everywhere and since the scan I have had 2 more cycles of chemo and I'm now on tamoxifen.My consultant has said he is pleased with the shrinkage and now the tamoxifen should keep it at bay, hopefully!!!!! Its a bit scary knowing the poison has stopped think it was my comfort blanket!

I've now stopped wearing the bandanas they have started irritating me and give me a bit of a headache. Once i had gone out without it I feel theres no looking back. I have got a little covering of downy hair that the kids love.

My eldest Sophie went off to dance college, Alice started Comp and oliver juniors all on the same day and guess what I was having chemo!! Little Betsy is walking and is never still shes a little monkey!!!!!

I'm looking forward to not having to be up and down to the hospital and to hopefully tryingto lead a fairly normal life. The kids activities are keeping me busy and I'm hoping me and Nigel can get a little bit of us as a couple back, it has impacted on us so much sometimes I get so upset when I think about what has happened to us.I love all my family so much and sometimes I feel that this could have easily destroyed us!!!

Anyway sorry to go on please let me know how you are all doing and thanks for reading. I won't ever let myself be away for that long again.

Love to you all

Lou

Hi Lou I was just thinking last week how we hadn't heard from you. Glad things seem to Be on the up for you and the kids are doing well. I've one more chemotherapy in 2 weeks then radio and hopefully that's me, the time has flown by which is good. This lastvlot of chemotherapy has been the hardest for me, taxotere, it's awful makes your bones sore all over, have to take to bed for at least 5 days with strong pain killers, anyway nearly finished. Tony hi to you too. Speak soon guys and gals x

Hi Lou I was just thinking last week how we hadn't heard from you. Glad things seem to Be on the up for you and the kids are doing well. I've one more chemotherapy in 2 weeks then radio and hopefully that's me, the time has flown by which is good. This lastvlot of chemotherapy has been the hardest for me, taxotere, it's awful makes your bones sore all over, have to take to bed for at least 5 days with strong pain killers, anyway nearly finished. Tony hi to you too. Speak soon guys and gals x

Hi Colly

You are just ahead of me - I've just had No.4 of TAC Chemo and it seems to have got worse each time - know what you mean about bones - this is the eighth day following the chemo and the first one without pain - I actually feel I might not die this week now - only joking but for the first 5-6 days I thought I might!

Still only 2 left - 1 at beginning of Oct and one at the end so I keep reminding myself that this will all be over (excepting radiotherapy) by 'the end of next month' Doesn't sound so bad saying it like that.

Hi Tony and Hi Caz - hope you continue to recover well from your op.

Andy is still waiting to hear about his next surgery but I'm now hoping it won't be until November so that I will be able to look after him. He has been so lovely to me when Ive been feeling ill and not at all patient with him. So far we have been able to take it in turns looking after each other so fingers crossed it will all work out.

xxx

Sorry for my very bad 'joke' when I read about all the suffereing people have to go through on this site I'm afraid the only way I cope is by joking about things that scare me to death. I do apologise for any offence I may have caused - I really didn't mean to

None taken ;) Good to hear from you again but sorry you are suffering.I use humour as well ,we all have our coping stratagies.Glad Andy is continuing to recover,by Christmas you 2 will be looking back on all this and thinking thank heavens this is over.

Good luck to you both

Rose xxx

hi all

justed poppped on to seee how u all are.

sara great to here your all clear news sorry about your daughter girls are very hard work but i think you can handle it i am afraid sometimes you need to be a bit selfish and focus on youself i know its easier said than done for us mums but we are all here to listen to any dramas even if we cant do anything we are so happy to listen thoughts are so with you xxxx

as for the relationship thing i think we all are bit wobbly re that it must be so hard for our partners on so many levels.wise words from tony as usual i may have only joined a few weeks ago but love to hear all those wise words and humour from everyone it is such a tonic!!

i had my first chemo monday ok but bit sick and knackered did do bit too much yesterday (despite tonys advice said dont do too much on a good day!! lesson learnt!!)

has anyone heard how dizzy first chemo went thursday ?

hope caz doin ok xx

love to all

gonna look at wigs 2morrow might go for somthing bit different treat for my hubby after 21 years xxxx

ninaxxxxxx