hi im 36 mother of 3 n diagnosed dec 23. ive had 2 ops n 5 of 6 chemo n finding it very hard at mo. feel so peed off n cant get rid of that feeling. would love to chat. x
Hi Everyone don't knw if you have missed me but I have certainly missed all you lot and have noticed a few new recruits. I haven't had a computer since July it had something seriously wrong with it and it has drove me mad not being able to chat!!! I haven't had chance to do a complete read through everything so could some of you bring me up to date with a few things. I'v noticed all your fab photos though you all look stunning and I hope you are all keeping as well as you can I'v missed you all terribly.
A quick up date on me! I had a scan in August after 3 lots of FEC and 3 lots of pacitaxol and gemcitibine. To cut long story short it has shrunk everywhere and since the scan I have had 2 more cycles of chemo and I'm now on tamoxifen.My consultant has said he is pleased with the shrinkage and now the tamoxifen should keep it at bay, hopefully!!!!! Its a bit scary knowing the poison has stopped think it was my comfort blanket!
I've now stopped wearing the bandanas they have started irritating me and give me a bit of a headache. Once i had gone out without it I feel theres no looking back. I have got a little covering of downy hair that the kids love.
My eldest Sophie went off to dance college, Alice started Comp and oliver juniors all on the same day and guess what I was having chemo!! Little Betsy is walking and is never still shes a little monkey!!!!!
I'm looking forward to not having to be up and down to the hospital and to hopefully tryingto lead a fairly normal life. The kids activities are keeping me busy and I'm hoping me and Nigel can get a little bit of us as a couple back, it has impacted on us so much sometimes I get so upset when I think about what has happened to us.I love all my family so much and sometimes I feel that this could have easily destroyed us!!!
Anyway sorry to go on please let me know how you are all doing and thanks for reading. I won't ever let myself be away for that long again.
Welcome back Lou and yes you have been missed !!!:love: Yes,unfortunately lots of new recruits so we need you to answer these ladies.
When I finished my chemo I did not want to go,it was my security blanket too.I actually missed going there,unfortunately it wasnt long before I had to return but it has been a part of your life for so long.Glad to hear the children are doing well,some sort of normality at last !!Lets have a pic of you on here.
Just off to babysit for my grandaughter (4 weeks old) so take care.Lovely to hear from you again.
Rose, have great fun with that lovely new baby, I am sure you will, and thank you for your support. Tony, you hit the nail on the head with your words. Lou, nice to meet you! With the thing about relationships, it is true it completely changes things. My other half is not the hold hands type, but I have always been affectionate. Recently although he gives me the pep talk and pushes me to the limit with telling me how I have to see things in perspective he has been far more affectinate, patient and loving. I don't think anyone can say that this awful disease doesn't change them and the range of emotions vary from person to person, day to day - even hour to hour sometimes. However, everything you feel is normal, even if it sometimes doesnt seem feel like it. I am a very private person and find when I do talk about things, i ramble on and on and forget there are other things in my life too, but you do find out who your 'friends' are and which ones are stronger than others. Everything has a different light. I am sure the worry sometimes of 'looking normal, attractive and so on also crops into your minds, but as my partner said to me, " If I was blind, I would still love you as much and want you as much." He also said that when you read the romance novels the traditional rugged scar on the male makes him appealing, and real women have those rugged scars too whether pysical or emotional. I used to love to show off my stretch marks because I didin't have the same flat unmarked belly that everyone else had, mine had its own individual pattern that said i have my kids and i am proud. I felt different about the scar. sometimes it seems like everything is closing in, and just being able to share my frustration and anger at my daughters silly actions made me feel heaps better. Sharing makes it so much easier.
Rose, have great fun with that lovely new baby, I am sure you will, and thank you for your support. Tony, you hit the nail on the head with your words. Lou, nice to meet you! With the thing about relationships, it is true it completely changes things. My other half is not the hold hands type, but I have always been affectionate. Recently although he gives me the pep talk and pushes me to the limit with telling me how I have to see things in perspective he has been far more affectinate, patient and loving. I don't think anyone can say that this awful disease doesn't change them and the range of emotions vary from person to person, day to day - even hour to hour sometimes. However, everything you feel is normal, even if it sometimes doesnt seem feel like it. I am a very private person and find when I do talk about things, i ramble on and on and forget there are other things in my life too, but you do find out who your 'friends' are and which ones are stronger than others. Everything has a different light. I am sure the worry sometimes of 'looking normal, attractive and so on also crops into your minds, but as my partner said to me, " If I was blind, I would still love you as much and want you as much." He also said that when you read the romance novels the traditional rugged scar on the male makes him appealing, and real women have those rugged scars too whether pysical or emotional. I used to love to show off my stretch marks because I didin't have the same flat unmarked belly that everyone else had, mine had its own individual pattern that said i have my kids and i am proud. I felt different about the scar. sometimes it seems like everything is closing in, and just being able to share my frustration and anger at my daughters silly actions made me feel heaps better. Sharing makes it so much easier.
