hi im 36 mother of 3 n diagnosed dec 23. ive had 2 ops n 5 of 6 chemo n finding it very hard at mo. feel so peed off n cant get rid of that feeling. would love to chat. x
I have made the decision to have the double mastectomy.
It was a very hard decision to make.... but
Self presavation kicked in,,,,,, and to be honest, look at the choices!
Mastectomy and quadrantectomy including nipple removal........ 2 horrendous scars and a mis shapen deformed lump on my chest... with constant worry of grade 3 lobular cancer re occurring in the future
Or double mastectomy..... 2 even matching scars....... and peace of mind
Not much of a choice when I finally got my head straight
But I think the hardest thing is trying to take it all in and make sence of it all
Thank you all for your support and words of encouragement
Hi caz you are in my prayers, I think you have made a very difficult decision but in my mind the correct one, it's amazing what they can do now a days. Good luck love colly x
I think you have made the right choice also, and they can do amazing re-constructive work these days. One step at a time. Good luck for the operation I will be thinking of you.
I have got used to the idea and told Barbara (my breast nurse)... and now she has made all the arrangements.
I have to go in on Tuesday for my final appointment, blood tests, constent forms etc
I feel strangly calm... sort of a wierd acceptance .... i told Dave that I am scared I will crach and burn on Wednesday.... he said I may crash, but he will never let me burn.
But I do know that I am scared at the speed this has all snowballed
I'm glad you've made a decision that you're comfortable with. I will be thinking about you next week and am sure you'll be back here in no time.
I read what you said about the speed this has all snowballed at, but sometimes you're better off that way....I've almost had 'too' long to think about my operation and I sincerely wish they'd not told me back in April what was in store for me - because I've had way too long to worry about it all.
Will keep fingers crossed that all goes really smoothly next week. Will you get hubby to update your blog or will we have to wait until you're out of hospital?
I have been reading your news, and I just want to say how very sorry I am and that I think you are being very brave and very dignified in how you are handling this, Im not sure I would have been so calm, dont think that you have to handle it this way cos if you have a day where you feel like screaming and shouting well just get right on here and do just that, and noone will think any less of you, you are such a beautiful lady and your husband sounds like a real gem.
I wish you all the luck in the world and will be routing for you next week.
All my love
Lee xx
P.S .....A big hi to all the girls and a big cyber hug too.xxxxxxxxx
a big hi to you all ! I had a really tearful day yesterday, I looked at my 'new' scar and fell to pieces, and then the negative thoughts do what they do best and spiral into dispair. I remember reading somewhere on here that one lady allows herself one or two days a month to let off steam. I had one day yesterday. I feel better today having let it all out and as all the wonderful people will tell you here, we live off the adrenalin at first and when its gone, we crash Compared to Caz's dilema mine was nothing. . I had thought about mastectomy - and I think caz has made the best decision for her - hugs and best wishes. I have seen some of the reconstructions and they are absolutely amazing - and they can redo the original scars to make them almost non existent. i haven't ruled out having double mastectomy although my surgeon thinks im taking this a bit too far, but has said if thats what i want, then we can discuss. I would prefer to wait till all treatment is finished and think of it as new boobs, new hair NEW ME !!!! Just a reminder Caz and all the others of you who get the depressed days like I had yesterday, our nipples and balls of bouncing fat that sit upon our chests might be the visible signs of sexuality, but the biggest sex organ is the brain. Boobs can be rebuilt, love continues to grow and bring you closer, and each morning the sun rises to greet us and glows red to say goodnight. All the feelings you have are natural and normal, but take everything one step at a time, give yoruself tme to grieve for the loss, then kick your backside into gear, come and chat here and remember life will be good again xxxxxx thinking of you
I have/had a different type of cancer (I refuse to put a capital or call it the big c)....however I read your 'call to arms' and feel proud to be a part of this community we have built on here.
One day we will arrange a big do somewhere, preferably close to Matlock and all meet up it will be one hell of a party but first we need a few more of you to get a bit better first.
God bless all you ladies, you are truly wonderful!
