Hi Tina, I am really sorry to hear people have distanced themselves from you just when you need them the most. I’ve had this experience myself (I’m currently on my 5th cancer journey) so I know what you’re going through. Sadly some people simply cannot cope with what is happening to you so they choose to distance themselves.  Cancer can certainly show who your real friends are. You need to concentrate solely on yourself now. My personal opinion is that the very word cancer scares people to a point where they just shutdown and pretend it’s not happening. It’s not nice and it’s not right but it probably won’t change. If they lose your friendship that is their loss and they will have to deal with their nagging conscience for a very long time. I am very careful who I allow into my life now and, sadly, even those I allow in are held at arms length. It’s my way of protecting myself. 

Ended up with sarcoma under my arm the size of a golf ball, it burst today and came out through the scar under my arm, a bit scary

The breast nurse said it will be OK it just needs to drain 

How are you doing on this journey after it being your 5th time?

My thoughts are with you and thank you for the support you have shown 

Ouch

That must have been very scary for you. I remember having my armpit drained after my last breast cancer and it felt much better afterwards. I felt like I was constantly walking around with a couple of carrier bags under my arm. I’ve had a really tough week (dizzy,  exhausted and, unfortunately feeling very depressed, angry and hating myself so much for being ill again)  I know that’s not logical but I can’t help it at the moment. Thank you for thinking of me and I hope that you’re doing ok today. 

It was scary but feels so much easier now, not so much pressure 

Please don't hate yourself for being ill unfortunately we didn't ask for this and like me I expect emotions run high and low, some days are good some bad 

Always here if you want a rant or just someone to talk to 

Macmillan say it helps talking to someone in the same boat or 1 going through cancer and they are right, unless you have had it or going through it other people don't really understand the impact, it's physically and emotionally draining 

I have an appointment on 26th I think it's to find out when my radiotherapy starts so my emotions are all over the place, all the little ifs and buts, will I be sick some say it can have that effect, and the chemo pills, will I have all the horrible side effects

I think together we can prop each other up, it's a better day for me today 

Hoping you are doing better thus morning and thinking of you 

It was scary but feels so much easier now, not so much pressure 

Please don't hate yourself for being ill unfortunately we didn't ask for this and like me I expect emotions run high and low, some days are good some bad 

Always here if you want a rant or just someone to talk to 

Macmillan say it helps talking to someone in the same boat or 1 going through cancer and they are right, unless you have had it or going through it other people don't really understand the impact, it's physically and emotionally draining 

I have an appointment on 26th I think it's to find out when my radiotherapy starts so my emotions are all over the place, all the little ifs and buts, will I be sick some say it can have that effect, and the chemo pills, will I have all the horrible side effects

I think together we can prop each other up, it's a better day for me today 

Hoping you are doing better thus morning and thinking of you 

Bless you and thank you. Yes I’m sure we will be able to support each other.

Thank you for the update