Hi Bracks.  I am sorry that you have incurable ovarian cancer.  I haven't had chemo since 2013 when I was diagnosed with breast cancer.  I had op, chemo then radiotherapy.  In 2024 I was diagnosed with stage 4 incurable breast cancer and have mets in most of my bones.  I have been on treatment for just over a year now.  I also thought in the beginning I wouldn't live to get my pension.  I was 47 the first cancer and 59 when diagnosed with secondary.  I know if I look at the future it will be one long struggle with treatment.  I am determined to live a long time with this and enjoy every day.  Last year my husband and I went to Portugal on holiday and we are going to Iceland in two weeks.  I have lots of pain in my back because have tumors in most of my spine but I control this with tramadol.  I had some counselling that Macmillan arranged for me.  I also do online zoom courses with cancer charity Penny Brohn and they help.  Have you got people to talk to or had any kind of counselling?  I am here to chat if you would like to.  you are not alone.

Lee x