Living with incurable stage 4 ovarian cancer HGSOC. I'm really struggling with the reality of my situation and can't lift my mood

Hi all im Z and im 51 and living with incurable stage 4 ovarian cancer HGSOC. Would be keen to talk to others in my position or anyone living with cancer. Even though I feel relatively well I really struggle with the reality im going to die from this and wont live to be old. I've had a lot of chemo over the last 2.5 yrs plus big surgery. I've never been NED and im getting tired of fighting a seemingly endless hard going treatment. Really need to lift my mood just cant atm. X