Hopeless most of the time

Hello everyone

 Reaching out and wondering if anyone else is unable to see a positive future.

 I've had s mastectomy, chemo and will start radiotherapy soon.

It all seems never ending and gloomy.

 I've been chatting with a cancer psychologist and have been journaling and practicing CBT but ultimately I feel hopeless.

 Feel like my life changed forever upon receiving diagnosis and that really I have no future. 
Constantly scared of recurrence and spread, and can't get this out  of my head.

I apologise in advance for the gloomy nature of my post and am happy to delete if need be as I don't want to upset anyone. Just really really struggling.

 If you have read this, I thank you xx

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  • Hello Jayjay,I am sorry to hear you are feeling so down . It is definitely a very hard journey to go through . I found I had bilateral breastcancer in July 22 , a month before my son’s wedding . I plodded on without telling the family til after the honeymoon. I had the mastectomies and finished my chemotherapy last March ,I felt well throughout and tried to be positive . I am still feeling good ,and I am sure you will too . I see my friends and go out and about . My hair has come back and I have had my breasts reconstructed. You will get through this ,I try not to think about what could happen in the future,but whatever happens I am ready to deal with it . There is a Maggies centre at our hospital, they are very helpful to talk to ,if you have one try and use it . Accept any help you can get . Good luck ,positive vibes xxx

  • It was so nice to read your lovely reply to Jayjay. I will be starting chemo soon and it was good to hear that you felt well throughout. Is there any advice you can give, that helped you through this time?

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