Hi, I don't know whether anyone can offer me any advice.

I am due to start chemo very soon (one session per week for 3 weeks then one week off).  The problem is that although I am a very confident person, I am having severe panic attacks at just the thought of it.  I have a fear of hospitals and suffer from anxiety and panic attacks.  I explained this to the oncologist and he made a request on my notes for a side room.  However, the nurse who called me for a pre-chemo interview was very rude and said he hadn't made a request for a side room and they wouldn't allow it anyway.  She also said that my daughter (who is my carer) is not allowed to stay with me during my chemo.  

I called the hospital 25 times yesterday as there was no answer at the chemo dept to discuss this further. Eventually, an assistant ward sister called me and said my daughter is definitely not allowed to accompany me.  She said I would be fine (how does she know this?).  She too was very abrupt and I spent yesterday evening having a total meltdown. 

I was booked to have a covid test today but the roads are like ice here and the journey to the hospital is 1.5 hours away.  I cancelled the appt as I daren't travel on the roads until the bad weather has passed.  The Admin person called me today and was so rude it was unbelievable.  I am not imagining this and can not believe the lack of care and understanding.  

Any advice as to how I can get on with my treatment and did any of you have anxiety/panic attacks before starting your chemo?  I hope not, but did any of you experience any rude nursing staff? 

Sorry for the rant but I'm desperate.