Hello there - I'm so sorry you & your family are in this very sad situation. It's so hard to watch someone we love very much to become so poorly & feeling lost & fearing for what is to come is how most people feel. You've come to the right place here - lots of people have been & are in the same kind of situation & sharing your feelings with them will help you to cope. 

I wish I could tell you what might happen but of course no-one can. You may be right of course that your dad is battling on to get to the anniversary which must mean so much to him & your mum. He clearly is a fighter & he's trying the best he knows how to cope as you are. 

I can say I think I understand that you must feel at the end of your tether but we human beings are often much stronger than we think we are & we do, somehow, manage to get through the most difficult of times. I certainly hope this is what you will find as you get through each day.

Do keep posting here as & when you feel you need to because you'll find you're not alone. xx

Hi There 

I can relate to everything you say as I lost my father from cancer aged just 54 back in 1984. A strong proud Yorkshire man who lived for his family, then in 2001 I lost my stepfather to lung cancer. I can remember my father being very short tempered, I put it down to his frustration of not being able to do the things he wanted to do without having to ask for help and nothing I did for him was ever right. You have to be incredibly strong for them as they will test your emotions till you want to burst.

Both my father & stepfather made me the woman I am today and now I’m on my own breast cancer journey so they’ve both given me the strength to deal with my journey now.

I truly feel for you and I’m sending positive hugs. Take care x

Hi,

i lost my Dad in March after a very short brave battle, he was 58 and I am 32. The fittest healthiest man I knew and to watch him quickly deteriorate was so very hard. It is hard not to take the snappiness personally, but it’s not him, it’s that vile disease. Unfortunately my dad never got to meet his first grandchild as I went in to labour the day after we buried him, but it sounds like you’re doing everything right. If he no longer seems the man he was then leaving him and the children with happy memories is best, follow your gut x