Hello everyone. I would like to introduce myself.

My name is Mags and i am new to the forum. I have 3 grown up children and 6 grandchildren and 3 very young great grandsons.

I was diagnosed in March 2016 with Endometrial Cancer. I had my Op in May 2016, but am still finding it very difficult to come to terms with what has happened to me.

I have always considered myself to be a fairly strong person and able to cope with anything that happened to come along but, have to admit this has changed my life in many ways I had never thought imaginable. Everything happened so suddenly and there i was, having all the tests, getting the results and being told what was going to happen next. It was like a massive whirlwind had picked me up and dropped me in the middle of the ocean and told me to swim back.

I was generally pleased with having the op as i couldnt wait to get this 'thing' out of me. I was looking forward to getting my life back on track and hopefully get back to doing some work. I had formally reired in September 2015. I decided i was going to have a few weeks off to do my Christmas shopping and then, after Christmas would look at taking on some agency work. That did not happen. I was in theatre for just over 6 hours as i had a particularly difficult operation, according to the surgeons, there had been some difficulties with how they were going to do the operation once they got inside. I then had difficulty breathing so the op was stopped andthen re started. This was because one of my breathing tubes had 'slipped' and had come out of place. I then needed some x-rays before being taken back to recovery. I was in recovery for 12 hours but only came round about 4/5 hours before being transferred to the main ward. I ended up in hospital longer than was first planned.

When i did get home, I was given a number to ring if i or my family had any worries. I still felt good at that point. Cutting a very long story short. I started to feel ill and tired and hot. I was informed that i was going through a second menapause and that this sometimes happens to some women after this type of operation.

I had nightmares about my cancer trying to climb out of my womb and spread around my body.I was referred to the Oncology Psychological department. As time has gone on, I have sufferd with depression and my relationship of 27 years has also suffered. I have tried to find further help and support in  my area but mostly come up against a blank wall. NHS counselling is like gold dust in my area, private counsellors are charging an average of 40/50 pounds per session.

I just feel that i have been left to 'get on' with it. Then I found Maggie's online cancer centre that has helped a good bit with some very good support. Now i have found this forum and am hoping that between this nad Maggies, I will at last, begin to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you all for reading my post and I wish everyone well.

Mags.