How do we all cope?

Hi

I would just like to introduce myself as I am new to this site (Didn't think I would ever become a member). I lost my fiance John 4 weeks ago today to a metastatic melanoma. He was diagnosed with skin cancer 18 months ago and he was in remission for a while. Unfortunately a secondary cancer had got back in and it spread to his brain. No one knew that he had this until the day that he passed away. John only suffered with headaches two weeks prior so it wasn't a major cause for concern.

I am struggling at the moment to carry on and I just wish that I could join him very selfish of me I know because I have a 4yr old son tha depends on me.

I just want to know if anyone has experienced/going through the same as me?..............

  • Hi Beaker

    Thank you for your kind words.

    You keep hugging your husband and telling him that you love him.

    My thoughts are with you, keep strong

    Sarah xxx

  • Thank you Bill and Sarah.xxx

  • Hi Sarah,

    Just come across your thread here....I lost my wife in January and know where you are ....I keep very busy as you have .... and that helps ....but its not the same.  As I recently reported on my thread I have come to realise that I have become a different person due to and as a result of my loss and that new person contains so much I have learnt about my wife in loosing her that she comes with me as part of the new me - wherever that new person is to go, from now, and I can be a better person because of this.

    Big hug

    Ian

  • Hi Sarah,

    I am so sorry to read about your dads visit to the dentist. I hope it's nothing serious and can be easily treated. As you say you don't want more bad news.

    Please keep us informed, take care, Brian

  • Thank you Ian for your kind words.

    It's hard to explain to people how I'm feeling as they can't really comprehend it. I'm not the same person as I was and I never will be but I am trying to take baby steps forward and focus on mine and my little boy's future. He is 5yrs old and needs his Mum.

    It is a long process but I do feel a little bit better 5 months in. My partner John was a wonderful man and he had lots of friends that admired him. I am lucky to have a second chance with him as we went out together years ago when I was only 16 and he was 18! We met back up 3yrs ago and this time it was forever. We were getting married in August this year but unfortunately it wasn't meant to be.

    Anyway enough about me, I do hope you are well and keeping yourself busy.

    Take Care Ian

    Sarah x

  • Thanks Brian.

    My Dad is just waiting for an appointment to come through from the hospital. As soon as he has been I will let you know.

    Hope you are ok?

    Sarah 

  • Hi Sarah,

    Thank you.  Yes I am trying to keep busy.

    For you however, you can be happy at least for the fact that you did find each other and had those three years together. For John that was "forever" as he came to know it ..... and that was obviously the best he could have known or wanted for that time.  It is incredibly hard and difficult for you but you will find a way for you and your little boy: it will just take a bit of time possibly to get there.

    xxx

    Ian

  • Hi  Beaker,

    I have just caught up with your posts and just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you and your husband and hoping you are having a peaceful day.

    Best wishes

    Annabel.

  • Hi Beaker,

    Just wanted to say that I've been thinking about you and your hubby! I hope he's feeling comfortable and able to enjoy your hugs.

    You give so much support to everyone on here, just want to give you some back!

    Love to you both, Meerkat xxx

  • Hi Everyone,

    I haven't been on here for a while so I thought I would catch up and see how everyone is doing.

    Brian

    I hope you are your wife are well?

    Beryl

    I haven't seen you on here for a while so I do hope that you are coping at this difficult time?

    Jules

    It seems forever since I last spoke to you. How are you and your husband? I'm sure your daughter will be nearly ready to have her baby now? Is your Grandson enjoying school? Rhys doesn't say much about it but I know he is fine and enjoying it.

    Mickied

    Hope you are well and your Sarah is enjoying school?

    Susananne

    How are you? I haven't seen you on here for a while so I do hope you are well?

    Well for me, I haven't been too bad, still taking every day as it comes. I'm very busy at work at the moment (I work for a travel/flu vaccine company) and we are frantically delivering all the flu vaccines to gp practices throughout the UK.

    I am taking some time off at the end of October when it's half term for Rhys and I promised him that I would take him to the Natural History Museum in London.

    Take care everyone

    Sarah xx