Hello I'm Lisa.  I am 55 years old and have approximately 1year left to live.

I am so sorry but I am feeling helpless, frightened and scared.  The bad dreams and thoughts are plaguing me right now.  Nighttime is always the worse.

I am surrounded by a loving family and  have amazing friends.

I have read everywhere to make the most of every single day, and believe me I do try.  I just can't seem to settle or stop the tears.

I was so sure I would be okay.  When I heard the news, inoperable and terminal I just can't process it right.  I was until January 4th a secondary school teacher.  Now I feel everything was taken away from me in 1 week.

Please somebody tell me I'm not alone.  I know deep down there is huge suffering out there and I'm being ungrateful, selfish and bitter but that isn't really like me, or I didn't think I was.j

II'm just scared....

Lisa