I was given the news that I have stage 4 pancreatic cancer last March - two days after my Mum passed away. I find it difficult to believe my diagnosis and don't accept it. I don't want to live with cancer. I want to be me as I was before. I am starting my third session of chemotherapy next Tuesday but I don't want to go through with it. I want things to be as they used to be. My husband now cares for me. I do everything that I have to do because of him. He wants me to fight this. I feel so cheated. How do I get my mind back on track?