Scared 34 year old female awaiting tests

Thought I was just overweight and bloated as every time I have every been to the doctor's I have been told I needed to lose weight. 

Tried low fodmap, elimination, everything, nothing helped. 

Eventually went to the docs, turns out I have an abdominal mass and high CA125 levels. 

Awaiting an ultrasound, but feel like a terrified balloon being slowly inflated whilst I wait. 

Any recommendations on how to calm the brain and stop me constantly googling the worst?

Angry and sad at myself for leaving it so long before going to the doctor's and worried I've left it too long. 

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  • I hope you gain some confidence from your medical team. The feeling of panic does subside but it’s very important to use these forums to tell us things that you might not want to tell your family. I never wanted to worry them. I found comfort in talking to complete strangers. The hospitals are so much better now. They have so many tools in their toolbox to help us. There can also be more innocent explanations even with those blood test results. I hope it is all good news for you xx

  • Thank you, I appreciate it. 

    I haven't even told my family yet, I don't want to worry them before I know more. That, and if I don't tell them, it's a bit easier to try and forget about it all. xx

  • I’ve just told my husband who is very supportive but I’m not telling the children until I find out more after the colonoscopy. 

  • It’s very difficult to know when to tell family. The first thing that I thought about was “how do I tell my family ?”  I waited until I had a result and I had to tell them. But that can lead to them worrying about what you are NOT telling them. In the end it is YOU that needs the support and you might find telling them is really helpful and they will want to help you. But I completely understand not telling them. 

    i am sure there are many reasons for higher levels of CA125 and many of them are benign and innocent. We always have to assume the best but it’s hard isn’t it. 

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  • It’s very difficult to know when to tell family. The first thing that I thought about was “how do I tell my family ?”  I waited until I had a result and I had to tell them. But that can lead to them worrying about what you are NOT telling them. In the end it is YOU that needs the support and you might find telling them is really helpful and they will want to help you. But I completely understand not telling them. 

    i am sure there are many reasons for higher levels of CA125 and many of them are benign and innocent. We always have to assume the best but it’s hard isn’t it. 

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