Terrified

A 47 year old that lost her mum to breast cancer at 29. Mum first had Breast Ca at 37, lumpectomy and radiotherapy. Aged 47/48 cancer returned on other breast. Again stage 1, mum opted to have bilateral mastectomy and reconstructive surgery. Again lymph nodes clear. 2 year later took unwell.. mets in lungs within 5 months sadly left us. 
I have been on screening cause of high risk, mum gene tested didn’t have bracac gene. 
Me had a clear mammogram 6 months ago… noticed last week one nipple puckering.. felt a lump… got appointment with breast specialist this coming Monday. 
I’m absolutely terrified, doctor goggle ain’t good ‍♀️

But more terrified for my two daughters. Don’t want them living their life like I did terrified of having breast Ca 

  • Hi Vampire,

    Welcome to Cancer Chat. I'm sorry to hear of what you went through with your mum, and that you're going through a worrying time at the moment.

    I can see you have your appointment today - I hope that it goes OK.

    Do try to avoid looking things up on Google as a lot of it won't be relevant and it only tends to increase worries.

    There will be others on the forum who have been through something similar so hopefully you'll get some more replies here soon, and we are always here if you need it.

    Wishing you all the best,

    Ben
    Cancer Chat Moderator

  • Had appointment.. Something suspicious and one lymph node swollen. So after loads of mammograms, ultrasound guided biopsies and marker out in my breast. Have now to wait 3 weeks on pathology results

    But positive thinking… mammogram clear 6 months ago… so whatever we are facing hopefully it’s caught early

  • Well diagnosed with breast cancer and 1 lymph node involvement. Need to wait on HER2+ve result to see what type of chemo will need.
    All guns blazing… oncology next week then on this absolute *** journey of chemo and then surgery

    Just feel so angry having to go through this and my family again having to deal with another family member with breast cancer!!!

    But to all family and friends being totally positive.. joking and as if it will all be ok because of the terrible results we gave had as a family because of breast cancer!!!  I can’t be anything else!!! But totally devastated it’s happening again to me and my beautiful family. 
    But need to get out this head space and positive vibes I WILL BET THIS AND LUCK WILL BE ON OUR SIDE FIR INCE AND ILL WILL BEAT THIS!!!

  • Sorry to read your story and what you have been through. I'm starting chemo for breast cancer too on 15 April. I hope yours goes well. Will you need surgery after? X

  • So sorry that you are having to go through this journey too. All the best for your chemo journey ️

    another week has passed been to the oncologist and still no definite answer of what’s happening with regards to a result of the HER2 results

    Have so many questions to ask but can’t until this result comes in!!!

    I don’t want conservative surgery… I made that decision in my early 20’s ,when my mum had gene testing!!! Always said take them both off!, if I have the gene!!!

    I just want answers to my questions and get this ball rolling of this *** journey and be fine with this by 2025