Hi there ... so so sorry your going through this heartbraking time at the moment....  grief can take many forms and one is falling out with family ... i know there are a few help lines and phone nimbers that you can call ... i called cruse one day after i couldnt cope with thoughts of loosing my granddaughter to acute myeloid leukaemia at 18 ...

So I called and sobbed for about an hour, and felt a weight lift enough for me to cope awhile ... I can't remember their number so I'm tagging #the moderators and  #nurses .... hopefully they will pick your thread up and give you a few options to contact ... 

Sending a vertual hug.... Chrissie x 

Hiya, thank you so much for getting back to me, I feel so lost in my life right now I know his been gone since April 2021 but I thought I could deal with things and ive slowly lost everything and I really can't be without my dad but I know I have too and thats the hardest of all 

Hello Louise19802000, 

What you are going through after the loss of your dad is really tough but many of our members will understand how you are feeling at the moment and I hope they will be along, just as the lovely Chriss has been, to talk to you about their own experiences. As Chriss rightly said, the grieving process can take many forms and I thought I would share with you our page on coping with grief  so that you can better understand some of the emotions involved when dealing with intense grief as you are.

Keep strong though as you have been doing and think about your son and all those around you who love you. Perhaps it would be worth keeping trying to get in touch with your doctor. You could try and speak to a receptionist at your surgery and explaining that you really need to talk to a GP as soon as possible. There is help available and your doctor will be able to signpost you to the best services in your area and might suggest you get some grief counselling. 

Chriss mentioned Cruse Bereavement Support and just as it helped Chriss to talk to their helpline, perhaps you could get in touch with them as she suggested. As they say on their homepage, "grief can be overwhelming and you don't have to go through it alone".  You can call them for free on 0808 808 1677 and they also have an online chat service which you can access on this page. 

I hope this helps a little and I just wanted you to know that we are all there for you on the forum anytime you feel you need to reach out to others who are in a similar place. 

Warmest wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

Hello Louise19802000, 

What you are going through after the loss of your dad is really tough but many of our members will understand how you are feeling at the moment and I hope they will be along, just as the lovely Chriss has been, to talk to you about their own experiences. As Chriss rightly said, the grieving process can take many forms and I thought I would share with you our page on coping with grief  so that you can better understand some of the emotions involved when dealing with intense grief as you are.

Keep strong though as you have been doing and think about your son and all those around you who love you. Perhaps it would be worth keeping trying to get in touch with your doctor. You could try and speak to a receptionist at your surgery and explaining that you really need to talk to a GP as soon as possible. There is help available and your doctor will be able to signpost you to the best services in your area and might suggest you get some grief counselling. 

Chriss mentioned Cruse Bereavement Support and just as it helped Chriss to talk to their helpline, perhaps you could get in touch with them as she suggested. As they say on their homepage, "grief can be overwhelming and you don't have to go through it alone".  You can call them for free on 0808 808 1677 and they also have an online chat service which you can access on this page. 

I hope this helps a little and I just wanted you to know that we are all there for you on the forum anytime you feel you need to reach out to others who are in a similar place. 

Warmest wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator