Unsettling Thoughts

Hey

just want to get you guys oppinions. I'm stage4 esophogeal cancer and they cant operate so they only looking to control. I have been having some dark thoughts recently my thinking is even if they can control etc and keep me around for another 10 years (which could be constant treatments etc). is it fair on my familly cause if they kept me alive for another 10 years I still would only be 50 and they would still have to deal with the grief. Would it be better if It takes me quickly then my familly can grieve get it out their systems and my wife could move on with her life while she is still young to really enjoy it. I have the money side all sorted out so mortgage etc would all be sorted out and she would be well off. It seems possibly a better out come cause I dont want them to remember me as always in pain and having treatments etc.

Anyone else think this way or is it just me?

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  • Hi im on palative care, was diagnosed Feb 2016 ,im on permanent treatment (tablets and 3monthly injections) I've got prostate cancer gone to lymph nodes spine ribs pelvis and a lung ,I had chemotherapy at beginning of treatment .if I hadn't had it I would have died that year ,as it is I've had a good life living and enjoying it apart from odd hickups with treatment and cancer rising.

    Sometimes I feel down but mostly im positive and sure , I've been looking after my darling wife, she has Alzheimer's and Parkinson's till lately when treatment has been rough .we still enjoy life despite problems ,got house done to make life as easy as possible for us both.. my wife has carers three times through the day.

    I'm just giving you my side of things as I Cancer survivor .

    I was still working,(metal fabrication and welding firm) till I had to retire to look after my wife.

    Billy

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  • Hi im on palative care, was diagnosed Feb 2016 ,im on permanent treatment (tablets and 3monthly injections) I've got prostate cancer gone to lymph nodes spine ribs pelvis and a lung ,I had chemotherapy at beginning of treatment .if I hadn't had it I would have died that year ,as it is I've had a good life living and enjoying it apart from odd hickups with treatment and cancer rising.

    Sometimes I feel down but mostly im positive and sure , I've been looking after my darling wife, she has Alzheimer's and Parkinson's till lately when treatment has been rough .we still enjoy life despite problems ,got house done to make life as easy as possible for us both.. my wife has carers three times through the day.

    I'm just giving you my side of things as I Cancer survivor .

    I was still working,(metal fabrication and welding firm) till I had to retire to look after my wife.

    Billy

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