Not scared of death is this normal

Hello I was fighting stage 4 breast cancer spread in to my lungs since May 2019.2 weeks ago found out my chest is stable but its in my brain now.I am 43 and first very dissapointed because once is in the brain is end of story.Now I am going to.have 10 days radiotherapy and then i requested chemo tablets.Well I was full of hope.not anymore.I was laughing to the nurse today because I know I am going to die and radiotherapy is not going to help.I refused to take the steroids because made my life miserable.It this normal to laugh when you know you going to be dead soon?

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  • Hi Denise 

    I myself have advanced stage 4 kidney cancer and was diagnosed 19 months ago. I have been quite ill in the past but now although I feel great a CT scan reveals the cancer has grown in my lungs. I've been angry and upset in the past but like you now I just want to laugh. Ive had all the emotions of worrying I'm dying and angry the cancer got so bad but I feel happy at the moment and I don't know how a clinal trial I'm hoping to start soon will make any difference but I'm feeling positive. Are there other options available? You have age on your side. I'm 48 by the way.

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  • Hi Denise 

    I myself have advanced stage 4 kidney cancer and was diagnosed 19 months ago. I have been quite ill in the past but now although I feel great a CT scan reveals the cancer has grown in my lungs. I've been angry and upset in the past but like you now I just want to laugh. Ive had all the emotions of worrying I'm dying and angry the cancer got so bad but I feel happy at the moment and I don't know how a clinal trial I'm hoping to start soon will make any difference but I'm feeling positive. Are there other options available? You have age on your side. I'm 48 by the way.

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  • Hello happy days I will be 44 and I am fighting this rotten disease since 2017cfirst curable then stage 4.now is stable in my lungs but since October in my brain.so much I am on the chemo pills but waiting for transferring for new hosp where they will be willing to do something.i am feeling positive because apart of the angry news on the hospital I am happy and don't show my doctors they break me.