Not scared of death is this normal

Offline Denise1977 over 5 years ago

Hello I was fighting stage 4 breast cancer spread in to my lungs since May 2019.2 weeks ago found out my chest is stable but its in my brain now.I am 43 and first very dissapointed because once is in the brain is end of story.Now I am going to.have 10 days radiotherapy and then i requested chemo tablets.Well I was full of hope.not anymore.I was laughing to the nurse today because I know I am going to die and radiotherapy is not going to help.I refused to take the steroids because made my life miserable.It this normal to laugh when you know you going to be dead soon?

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Offline gruntifen over 5 years ago

Hello Denise1977,
                          in all my life so far l have wondered if l have ever encountered normal. Smart,smarmy,super,weird,wicked,wacky,outgoing,outrageous,out of order,cute,cuddly,cocksure,l have come across all of these and l could keep going for ever,but normal for me has been hard to spot.So l have to say that l am not sure that l think you or your views are normal,but uniquely special.l hope we meet on the other side to discuss normality in more depth,after all l will not be that far away from joining you.l should not have too much difficulty in picking you out,l will be sure to look out for the one laughing,
             sending you a moment of happiness,
                                                                  David
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Offline gruntifen over 5 years ago

Hello Denise1977,
                          in all my life so far l have wondered if l have ever encountered normal. Smart,smarmy,super,weird,wicked,wacky,outgoing,outrageous,out of order,cute,cuddly,cocksure,l have come across all of these and l could keep going for ever,but normal for me has been hard to spot.So l have to say that l am not sure that l think you or your views are normal,but uniquely special.l hope we meet on the other side to discuss normality in more depth,after all l will not be that far away from joining you.l should not have too much difficulty in picking you out,l will be sure to look out for the one laughing,
             sending you a moment of happiness,
                                                                  David
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Offline Denise1977 over 5 years ago in reply to gruntifen

Thank you.i don't care what treatment throw at me.just came to the stage I dont care.So far i walk,I work,I am independent and want to keep like this.just take it now if the treatment working working if not not.its in my hands and no doctor will dictate what to do.
I am 43 but I feel like a burden for everybody.in the end I am glad its in the brain it will be fast.dont want be connected to the morphine or other tubes.this is my imagination of dying.althouh offer treatment i was pushed to do it.
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Offline mummawoodsy over 5 years ago in reply to gruntifen

Hey can I join the party?!!!
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