Hi, I found this post after looking at posts at this forum because I am losing my mind. I know exactly what you're going through.

My mom got diagnosed in January and these last months have been hard. Before we thought she had lyme disease and it was still awful to see her in pain, but it never occured to us she can die. After she got back with diagnosis and doctors saying there's not much we can do it's awful.

She got better at first, no pain and able to be on a wheelchair, was doing all the things like she had all the time in her life. Then two weeks ago she went down, sleeping all day, unconscious.

I'm pretty sure I've been grieving since January. I feel like an anticipatory grief is different in a way that you think about everythink after the death happens and at the same time deny the death happening. This is what I do at least.

I'm honestly really scared about what comes after. I had depression for some years now and just before my mom got diagnosed I got really better and even finished theraphy. But I'm really scared that when my mom dies depression will get a better of me and I won't be able to help others. We have autistic sister and she needs to be taken care of so I have no idea how can we do that immediately after death because I don't know how I'll be and how my dad will be or my other sister. I'm just scared that we won't be able to cope. I already feel like falling apart, I cry all day or dissociate. But if you all say it will be okay, maybe it will. I hope so.

Hi, I found this post after looking at posts at this forum because I am losing my mind. I know exactly what you're going through.

My mom got diagnosed in January and these last months have been hard. Before we thought she had lyme disease and it was still awful to see her in pain, but it never occured to us she can die. After she got back with diagnosis and doctors saying there's not much we can do it's awful.

She got better at first, no pain and able to be on a wheelchair, was doing all the things like she had all the time in her life. Then two weeks ago she went down, sleeping all day, unconscious.

I'm pretty sure I've been grieving since January. I feel like an anticipatory grief is different in a way that you think about everythink after the death happens and at the same time deny the death happening. This is what I do at least.

I'm honestly really scared about what comes after. I had depression for some years now and just before my mom got diagnosed I got really better and even finished theraphy. But I'm really scared that when my mom dies depression will get a better of me and I won't be able to help others. We have autistic sister and she needs to be taken care of so I have no idea how can we do that immediately after death because I don't know how I'll be and how my dad will be or my other sister. I'm just scared that we won't be able to cope. I already feel like falling apart, I cry all day or dissociate. But if you all say it will be okay, maybe it will. I hope so.