It's almost 4 in the morning, I have just taken my meds. Tomorrow I will be going in to a hospice. Now the reality is really dawning on me........this is it. I was diagnosed with breast cancer 6 years ago, but it is only now, at this stage of the journey, that it has really hit home: I am going to die. I don't think I have ever felt so alone in my life. I am thinking of the people that I must leave behind......my husband most of all. Part of me feels so guilty, because I know that my loss will be hard for him and my other family members.......and yet part of me wants this nightmare over and done with. I am not looking for a pity party, honestly I'm not.........but I admit that I feel scared..........I know that I am not the only person in the world going through this, but it feels like I am.........sorry for rambling on......I just needed to reach out...............