Hi Blue Girl I hardly know what to say but your post got to me and I just had to reach out to you ,for all its worth I know that Hospices aren't what people think they are ,my sons MIL works in a Hospice and I've heard they are lovely places ,Ive seen photo's of people having pampering sessions and doing different things with staff etc ,I also have a Relative in a Hospice she's been there since around October last year ,she actually came home for Christmas to spend time with her Husband and she went back after New Year ,whatever happens Blue Girl you'll be in good hands and one thing you won't feel is lonely ,God Bless you ,you will be remembered in my prayer xxx

Hello. I just wanted to respond to your message in some way.  I am so so sorry.  It must be terrifying. Of course you are scared .  It's natural. You are not rambling on either .  You will be in the thoughts of everyone who reads your message.  You are not alone and remember you are loved. In the words of Phillip Larkin (I think?) what's left of us is love.  Sending hugs 

Oh Blue-girl I don't know what to say.  Of course you are going to be scared its natural.  I have secondary breast cancer and think in a way am in denial.  I had a counselling session yesterday and got upset because I am scared of dying.  She said that is a completely normal reaction.  For me leaving my husband and my family (including my dogs) willl be the hardest.  I just want you to know that you are not alone.  I wish I could say something to make it better.  Please I am here if you want to chat.  Sending you much love and hugs.

Lee x

It’s a scary unknown time for you. I recently had a stint at a hospice to trial some pain relief and so I will be where you are soon. I am sure the hospice will treat you with best care possible to keep you safe and comfortable. I imagine that you are very afraid - I will be. You are such a brave person doing the best that you can for you. Keep your head up and keep talking to the staff about your fears. All the best

How are you getting on? Keep us posted

Thank you so much......I am now in the hospice being given pain relief treatment, and it isn't as terrifying as I imagined it would be........I guess I was fearing the unknown.  Hopefully, I will get some relief from the pain I am experiencing.  Once again, thank you. 

God Bless Blue girl ,you are in my thoughts and prayers xxx

Oh good. Glad you are ok

God bless you Jenny, xxx

I wanted to echo everyone else's thoughts.

Its all so unfair. ..

We're all going to die but you've had "prior" warning of it - I don't know if you feel that's a blessing or a curse..

One in two of us will die from cancer so even if people are walking around healthy and with a spring in their step at the moment, unfortunately that's not always going to be the case .

I hope there are plenty of people in the hospice that you can talk to and get things off your chest.  Also that there are little things that can give you flashes of warmth and love.

Do keep in touch