Hi

It's hard being here, it's the sort of forum I hoped I'd never have to join. So hello! I'm not sure what to put, I get emotional and I don't want to start crying and make a fool of myself. I've been fighting cancer since 2016, its since spread over years and recently spread again. Treatment has been horrible at times and right now it's all feeling like it was for nothing. I try not to think like that. *sighs*. I try to keep my positive face on. I don't want to be a pain to my family, so I thought I'd come here and vent and hopefully find some advice and help.

Much love x

Pigtails xx

  • Hi welcome to the forum the club nobody wants to join. 

    So strange i was diagnosed in February 2016,classed as uncurable, two years later, palative care I've prostate cancer gone to lymph node's, pelvis, spine, ribs and lung. 

    As with you my uninvited guest keeps biting me and treatment keeps changing to get it down again. 

    Billy xx 

    Ps  plenty of people come on here to vent, and sometimes language can be rather **** .(rude).

     

  • Hi. Thank you. I'm sorry your finding yourself here as well. So sorry to see your diagnosis and what you have been through. Hopefully things will start to improve for you. Hang in there. It doesn't rain forever, the sun will shine again.

    Our uninvited guests are a real pain aren't they. Just got to keep going though. I'm still hoping mine will be kicked out in the end.

    I'm glad I'm not the only one to vent. I'll try keep my language pleasant.

    Hope your doing well today

    Pigtails xx

  • Hi  i try to help others where i can as it helps me to keep occupied and think i am doing my bit to help others, where i cannot do anything about myself. 

    Billy xx 

  • That's so sweet of you to be thinking of others when you yourself are going through so much. I bet you do a lot more for yourself than you realise, I find being there for others also helps you a great deal as well. 

    If you ever need to talk you can always come to me and I'll listen and try to help.

    Pigtails xx

  • If you you touch the avatar (picture ) you can get details of that person if they have put things on (some don't bother).or open search at Blue line at top of string and enter what you want to find. 

    Billy xx 

  • Thanks Billy. Bit confusing at times here but I think I'm getting the hang of it now. I put a little in mine, not a lot will probably update it at some point.

    Pigtails xx

  • Thought you maybe didn't know about so forum details, it took me ages to figure some out.

    My darling wife Brenda has been in psychiatric hospital three months bad UTI, then got trouble with her blood so hospital 2nd week found she has covid so cannot visit, seems strange as always been together over 50 years apart from odd days. I take treats( cream buns chilled drinks and such and tv card as she loves tv for something to occupy her. Cards only last 3days so pop every 3,give everything to nurse and home again. 

    Im temporary off my cancer meds as not been very well and oncologist wanted to be sure if meds were problem. They are, i know my cancer is biting as it was before off meds so just see what happens next with meds. 

    Billy xx 

     

  • Hi. Thanks, yeah it can be a bit daunting not sure what to do so thanks for that. I wrote it up after your kind explaining. Not a lot but I'll probably update it again more later.

    I'm very sorry that Brenda's having to go through all that. And I'm sorry you're having to go through it as well. That can't be easy to cope with as well as everything else going on in your life. I hope she'll have a speedy recovery. Remember the nurses will be looking after her and providing lots of support. I'm sorry she has COVID now. Just awful. I hate the not being allowed to visit family, it's horrible. Hopefully she will be a lot better soon. It can't be easy for you. Keep busy if you can and remember she's in good caring hands at the moment they'll look after her.

    A lot of it is try and see I've found with the meds and therapy. I'm sorry yours were making you bad. Hopefully the next ones will be a success for you.

    Oh and be sure to go careful today and tomorrow what with the extreme heat. I think it's expected to reach 35 here tomorrow, dreading that! Should be ok though if keep drinking and avoid the direct sunlight.

    Pigtails xx

  • Hiya Pigtails, as Billy says, this is the forum no-one wants to join.  I have had breast cancer twice (still got it in fact), and was recently told it is now stage 4.  I had an operation, went through chemo and like you have said, it seems like it was all for nothing.  At the moment I am still able to take care of my husband, who is seriously ill and housebound, but I must admit I am worried about what will happen to him when I am no longer here.............and of course I realise that I will start to become too ill to take care of him.........well, as my mum used to say, "cross all those bridges when you get to them".  I joined this forum about 2 months ago..........I was at a VERY low ebb, and felt so alone and frightened, like everything had become too much for me, but there were so many folks here who were kind to me (Billy being one of them).  It is so nice to be amongst people who know exactly what you are going through, because you really do have to walk in someone else's shoes to understand don't you?  And remember to cry and get emotional as much as you want to............crying is very cathartic and good for you.  Take care mate, Violet, x

  • Hi pigtails. Sorry you find yourself here it's rubbish! 
    Treatment can be very harsh at times, but never think it was a waste of time, it has probably given you more time with your family. 
    My cancer is a sarcoma and is inoperable, but being managed at the moment. I know there is no cure, but you have to keep on going. Do you mind me asking where your cancer started? Mine was in the womb and spread to the lungs.