Hiya Pigtails, as Billy says, this is the forum no-one wants to join.  I have had breast cancer twice (still got it in fact), and was recently told it is now stage 4.  I had an operation, went through chemo and like you have said, it seems like it was all for nothing.  At the moment I am still able to take care of my husband, who is seriously ill and housebound, but I must admit I am worried about what will happen to him when I am no longer here.............and of course I realise that I will start to become too ill to take care of him.........well, as my mum used to say, "cross all those bridges when you get to them".  I joined this forum about 2 months ago..........I was at a VERY low ebb, and felt so alone and frightened, like everything had become too much for me, but there were so many folks here who were kind to me (Billy being one of them).  It is so nice to be amongst people who know exactly what you are going through, because you really do have to walk in someone else's shoes to understand don't you?  And remember to cry and get emotional as much as you want to............crying is very cathartic and good for you.  Take care mate, Violet, x

Hiya Pigtails, as Billy says, this is the forum no-one wants to join.  I have had breast cancer twice (still got it in fact), and was recently told it is now stage 4.  I had an operation, went through chemo and like you have said, it seems like it was all for nothing.  At the moment I am still able to take care of my husband, who is seriously ill and housebound, but I must admit I am worried about what will happen to him when I am no longer here.............and of course I realise that I will start to become too ill to take care of him.........well, as my mum used to say, "cross all those bridges when you get to them".  I joined this forum about 2 months ago..........I was at a VERY low ebb, and felt so alone and frightened, like everything had become too much for me, but there were so many folks here who were kind to me (Billy being one of them).  It is so nice to be amongst people who know exactly what you are going through, because you really do have to walk in someone else's shoes to understand don't you?  And remember to cry and get emotional as much as you want to............crying is very cathartic and good for you.  Take care mate, Violet, x

My word you have been through a awful lot. I'm sorry. But your strong and I'm glad that you can still do things for your hubby and yourself. I worry about the when I'm to ill but for now do try to focus on the now, today, worry about tomorrow another day. Please reach out here or to cancer support if you need to when feeling low. There is support out there for us so please use it if you need to. That's what it's there for. I'm tired and am going to rest now. Take care in the heat and I hope you've had a better day today.