Hi
my dad got diagnosed with bowel cancer 3 years ago, we then got told 6 months later after radiation and chemotherapy that his cancer had spread to his lungs. He was told it wasn't curable and chemo would only pro long his life. He has been super strong and been having chemo ever since, he does 6 months and then 3 months off. Recently I have noticed a decline with my dad, and I am really struggling with the whole thing. I've been trying to be strong for everyone and hold all my feelings in but it's making me I'll. everyday I feel rubbish, there's always something wrong. I don't know how I will cope without my dad, and the thought of it scares me.
every day he is going around my head 24/7, I wish that this wasn't happening to him and that a miracle would happen. I think I just need someone to talk too. I'm trying to be there for everyone else and keep a smile on my face. Some days are just so hard.
thanks for reading
