Hello Lucie, at the start of the year, i had been on HT for 7 months and was due to have a TURP then RT soon after, My PCa diagnosis is very poor, and limited treatment options but i was doing well physically. I had a scan before surgery which showed my cancer had spread despite being on HT, and i seriously thought about stopping treatment after the TURP, as like i said i felt really well and life was good and knew my time was short anyway. The week before my Op i was at  my local cancer drop in centre and was chatting away and i mentioned my dilemma to the group "we are all terminal" and it turns out my thoughts are not unusual and they told me to go and see Claire, ex oncology nurse now counsellor. Luckily she had a cancellation and could see me straight away, "i doubt if i had had to make an appointment i would have bothered", Best thing i did all year. did RT, apart from PSA down to 0.08 i do not know anything else, October annual heart MOT, my cardiologist, "who was against surgery and chemo" told me of a new way of surgery that uses very small amounts of anaesthetic "my heart and anaesthetic don't get along" and we could fix some of my heart issues so chemo becomes an option. 3 Ops done 1 to go, feel really good and, fingers crossed treatment and a little longer, My message is don't give up hope please take care, Eddie

What a great uplifting post Eddiel ,its amazing what you can learn just by chatting to someone ,I hope you go from strength to strength and have a great new year x

What a great uplifting post Eddiel ,its amazing what you can learn just by chatting to someone ,I hope you go from strength to strength and have a great new year x

Hello Jenny and thank you, i still have counselling but not as often. have a wonderful new year. take care, Eddie