Hi, I just wanted to say that you are not alone. My mym died in May from metastatic breast cancer that spread to her bone marrow and lungs. Her breast cancer came back two years ago but we all thought it was being controlled, including her oncologist. We found out it had spread and that there was nothing they could do in February .  Her decline was very quick in the end. I have a 1.5 yr old and a 5 year old. It's been so hard. Every day at the beginning was a struggle and honestly it still feels likes I am walking through treacle every day. But I wanted to say that you do have a reason to live and that's for  your children. They need you like you needed your mum and you have to be there for them like your mum was for you
I still break down every day, the cries and tears come from somewhere so deep it feels like it will never heal. But I know my mum's biggest concern was whether we (I have two sisters) would be ok and I know she would want us to be ok. I'm sure your mum felt the same. 
this is the hardest thing me and my family have ever been through, her loss has left a huge gaping hole in our lives but we have to carry on, one day at a time. I look at my children every day and they make me smile, they give me a reason to get up as I hope do yours. Sending you lots of strength and love, we all need it. 

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P.

Hi, I just wanted to say that you are not alone. My mym died in May from metastatic breast cancer that spread to her bone marrow and lungs. Her breast cancer came back two years ago but we all thought it was being controlled, including her oncologist. We found out it had spread and that there was nothing they could do in February .  Her decline was very quick in the end. I have a 1.5 yr old and a 5 year old. It's been so hard. Every day at the beginning was a struggle and honestly it still feels likes I am walking through treacle every day. But I wanted to say that you do have a reason to live and that's for  your children. They need you like you needed your mum and you have to be there for them like your mum was for you
I still break down every day, the cries and tears come from somewhere so deep it feels like it will never heal. But I know my mum's biggest concern was whether we (I have two sisters) would be ok and I know she would want us to be ok. I'm sure your mum felt the same. 
this is the hardest thing me and my family have ever been through, her loss has left a huge gaping hole in our lives but we have to carry on, one day at a time. I look at my children every day and they make me smile, they give me a reason to get up as I hope do yours. Sending you lots of strength and love, we all need it. 

best

P.