I’m really struggling with the fact my dad died

I don't really know where to turn because no one I know has really gone through this yet. 
I lost my dad 2 months ago and it's absolutely destroying me. My dad played both mum and dad and I've lost 2 parents in one and im broken. We spoke and saw each other every single day without fail and im so lonely without him. My heart has broken and I have no one to turn to. Im not depressed but im extremely sad, lonely and my heart has truly shattered. I try and talk to friends and family but they don't understand and I keep getting "I'm always here" and "at least you got to say goodbye". It's like my world has stopped and everyone else's is still going and I feel like whenever I'm around people I instantly drag their mood down. I just genuinely don't know how to cope that he is no longer here

I would like to just thank everyone for their kind words and support, it is very appreciated. I haven't had much time recently to reply but I want you all to know I'm here for you ️  you'll never be alone in the world when people as nice as you lot are here x

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  • Hello moonlighting

    Reading your struggle has brought tears to my eyes, its been 6 months today since I watched my dad take his last breath ,he'd been struggling with MDS since November 2020....and became gravely ill in February 2021 with chest septicaemia which affected both lungs and his heart.

    What annoyed me was that due to covid only my mother could visit him, I used every excuse to see him as he didn't want mum to know he was dieing!!!! Plus I needed to sort out finances and will  as well as cope with the knowledge that dad would die.

    He was in and out of hospital on 4 occasions coming out for maximum of 6 days  having blood transfusions and chemotherapy plus covid jabs!!! 

    Life is now trying to come to terms with my rock has gone as he did everything for me growing up, my mum has a lot of mental issues so her understanding of looking after both my brother and myself was basic.

    It's hard to work and live with my dad gone, sometimes I talk to him snd ask for guidance.....like you I'm broken. 

    Your story has given me comfort that I'm not alone. 

    Take care and healing soon.

  • I really want to say sorry in my late reponse, so much has happened within the time I posted this til now. How're you feeling now? I am so sorry for everything you went through. I am happy my story/experience gave you some form of comfort but remember you'll never be alone, please reach out to me if you need a chat I understand how lonely life can get after death x

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  • I really want to say sorry in my late reponse, so much has happened within the time I posted this til now. How're you feeling now? I am so sorry for everything you went through. I am happy my story/experience gave you some form of comfort but remember you'll never be alone, please reach out to me if you need a chat I understand how lonely life can get after death x

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