Hello Gabrielle21, 

I am so sorry for your loss. The last two years were probably really hard for you and I am sure your dad would indeed be very proud of you for keeping going. Don't worry the fact that you sometimes feel that you are forgetting what he sounded like and his little mannerisms, what it felt like to hug him is perfectly normal. It doesn't mean that you have really forgotten him. It's great that you have these videos to remember him and that you can watch them whenever you feel you want to see him again. I am sure many on our forum will have felt this way and I hope they will be along soon to share with you how they overcame this feeling or this fear that they were forgetting their loved one. 

After two years you have dealt with so many complex emotions and it doesn't mean at all that you have forgotten your dad but that you are starting to rebuild your life even though you still miss him desperately. There is some useful information on our website here about coping with grief which I hope you will find interesting. 

I will now let our other members who have also lost a loved one come and share their story with you and tell you more about how they themselves dealt with these feelings that they were starting to forget certain details about the person they were grieving. Our forum is always there for you anytime you need to talk to others who totally understand how you are feeling at the moment.

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

Hello Gabrielle21, 

I am so sorry for your loss. The last two years were probably really hard for you and I am sure your dad would indeed be very proud of you for keeping going. Don't worry the fact that you sometimes feel that you are forgetting what he sounded like and his little mannerisms, what it felt like to hug him is perfectly normal. It doesn't mean that you have really forgotten him. It's great that you have these videos to remember him and that you can watch them whenever you feel you want to see him again. I am sure many on our forum will have felt this way and I hope they will be along soon to share with you how they overcame this feeling or this fear that they were forgetting their loved one. 

After two years you have dealt with so many complex emotions and it doesn't mean at all that you have forgotten your dad but that you are starting to rebuild your life even though you still miss him desperately. There is some useful information on our website here about coping with grief which I hope you will find interesting. 

I will now let our other members who have also lost a loved one come and share their story with you and tell you more about how they themselves dealt with these feelings that they were starting to forget certain details about the person they were grieving. Our forum is always there for you anytime you need to talk to others who totally understand how you are feeling at the moment.

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator