Hi Jennifer, I am so sorry for your loss. Your mum sounds like an incredible person and it sounds like you had a wonderful relationship. Your loss is still so new and it is completely natural to feel the way you do. I am coming up to the 2 year anniversary of my dad dying ( he died a month after being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer) and I still miss him every single day. The first 6 months I personally found I was still in shock and trauma mode and not even beginning to grieve. That trauma is gone now but I would say it's only now I'm beginning to work through the actual grief. When we lose someone we love our whole world changes and yet the world goes on the same. As you say you question things - how can life be fair if bad things happen to good people etc? All of these feelings and thoughts are completely normal. Please be kind to yourself. Your feelings and emotions will be completely all over the place. Grief is absolutely horrendous and takes a toll mentally and physically. I would say further down the line it is helpful to do therapy or Counselling but as my GP said when I asked her a month after dad dying - there's no quick fix for grief. I went to her because I was like you, exhausted, in a brain fog the whole time. I felt like I was sleep walking through each day, I wouldn't remember how I got to the office. You can't rush through this stage though hard as it it. Take it as easy as you can and we are always here if you need advice or to chat.  

Hi Jennifer, I am so sorry for your loss. Your mum sounds like an incredible person and it sounds like you had a wonderful relationship. Your loss is still so new and it is completely natural to feel the way you do. I am coming up to the 2 year anniversary of my dad dying ( he died a month after being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer) and I still miss him every single day. The first 6 months I personally found I was still in shock and trauma mode and not even beginning to grieve. That trauma is gone now but I would say it's only now I'm beginning to work through the actual grief. When we lose someone we love our whole world changes and yet the world goes on the same. As you say you question things - how can life be fair if bad things happen to good people etc? All of these feelings and thoughts are completely normal. Please be kind to yourself. Your feelings and emotions will be completely all over the place. Grief is absolutely horrendous and takes a toll mentally and physically. I would say further down the line it is helpful to do therapy or Counselling but as my GP said when I asked her a month after dad dying - there's no quick fix for grief. I went to her because I was like you, exhausted, in a brain fog the whole time. I felt like I was sleep walking through each day, I wouldn't remember how I got to the office. You can't rush through this stage though hard as it it. Take it as easy as you can and we are always here if you need advice or to chat.