My mum died of stomach cancer over 3 years ago, when I was 15 and my sister was 13. She was my rock and my best friend and the glue to my family.  My sister is suicidal , my dad has a new girlfriend (who is actually wonderful) and everything is changing so fast I have no idea what to do, everything feels so hard. 
I get so sad but it hurts the people I love to talk about it, sometimes I just need someone to listen , but now my fears have come true and I upset people too much for them to know what to say or to just listen. I hate hurting people I feel like such a burden on my boyfriend and my friends. 
I miss her , I miss my gorgeous mum and I don't know what to do. 
holly