I'm so sorry about your wife , it's so very hard I still can't believe

my husband is gone I know it's only been 2 weeks  but I feel like I won't ever come to terms with it , and the way it happened for me was so unexpected and quick , it's made so much worse because the hospital did not complete a procedure which could have meant a different outcome for him .

Hi Kerry I'm just checking in to see if your ok still her if you want to chat

Hi Chris , thank you I think I just still feel numb and it seems so 

unreal , it's the thought that I can't see him or speak to him anymore I just can't seem to be able to accept it , a few weeks ago he came home from hospital so I thought he was going to pull through which makes it harder . I hope your coping ok .

It's no sad nothing I say can make you feel any better it's  a Horrible situation to be in In fact it's the worst situation to be in!  All I can say is try and take one day at a time just get through the day I don't even think about tomorrow. Not being able to see them or talk to him again is one of the hardest things to get your head around I still haven't been able to do that and I'm four months in front of you I never understand why she had to die! We were a perfect little family I try to believe she is pain-free now and is looking down on me waiting for me to come to her again but the last promise I gave her a look after the children and I'll be in heaven when you finished looking after the children love you forever that was her last words to me. Life is so cruel Me and the boys woke up to mummy's grave stone every day even the two-year-old knows about mummy's grave mummy is in heaven what normal two-year-old has to deal with things like this?  But somehow we must move forward 

Oh Chris that's just heartbreaking, poor children aswell why does this have to happen ? Other people have said to just take each day , I can't help myself I torture myself with he won't be here at Christmas etc etc , yes I think the hardest thing is that it's so final and they are just gone , I haven't had the funeral yet I'm freakish it and don't know how I'm going to get through it I don't want to say good bye to him it's just the most horrendous thing and the feeling of complete despair I feel like I need to run somewhere to find him like I can't accept he's not here . 

I didn't have a last conversation with him , he was on oxygen and he wasn't talking much at all the last couple of days but he was responding to me , I was with him when he passed and I just told him all the things I needed to say he was always telling me how much he loved me and I was his soulmate best friend just everything so I already knew . I just don't know how I will move forward I can't begin to imagine my life without him 

I feel your pain I think just the same every day about never going to see her never going to sleep next to her ,kiss cuddle watching her in the shower it's all the silly things for me as well as the normal stuff  but I know How much she loved me and how much she wanted to be here and look after me and our children but obviously the cancer got so bad it was the only outcome! I wanna back I'm really really doing more than anything I know that I never happen I want her back cancer free all I've got a memories now and I've got a try and remember all the good times with her instead of all the times I'm not going to be with her in the future 

For the children I made a memory box basically you put everything in the remind you about mummy favourite song favourite colour et cetera and when they feel sad they go to the box and read what people have wrote about her 

At the funeral you don't need to say goodbye You need to say I'll see you again  

I know I'm the same I can't stop thinking about how I will never hold him again or kiss him or just have a conversation with him he made me laugh every day it just seems so unreal  that he's not here with me , I went to sort out funeral arrangements today and I feel totally numb it was as tho I was talking about some body else not my husband.

taht is a lovely idea the memory box , my little boy Kisses his daddy's picture all time and pictures on my phone it's just heart break 

You doing great  I completely understand so in the funeral is hard But to me it felt like I was doing something for my wife  Choosing pictures choosing songs I was dreading going to a funeral but once I was in there and everyone in the room loved her like I did I really felt like she was with me I know that sounds strange. It's so sad When children are involved to you because you end up grieving for them as well if yourself but just try and be kind to yourself where about's in the country are you from?