Hello  I'm sorry for your loss cancer seems to only take good people I lost my wife to breast cancer 22nd of December 2020 She left we have a nine-year-old and a little two-year-old  my wife is only 39 I'm here if you want to chat

I'm so sorry about your wife , it's so very hard I still can't believe

my husband is gone I know it's only been 2 weeks  but I feel like I won't ever come to terms with it , and the way it happened for me was so unexpected and quick , it's made so much worse because the hospital did not complete a procedure which could have meant a different outcome for him .

Hi Kerry I'm just checking in to see if your ok still her if you want to chat

Hi Chris , thank you I think I just still feel numb and it seems so 

unreal , it's the thought that I can't see him or speak to him anymore I just can't seem to be able to accept it , a few weeks ago he came home from hospital so I thought he was going to pull through which makes it harder . I hope your coping ok .

It's no sad nothing I say can make you feel any better it's  a Horrible situation to be in In fact it's the worst situation to be in!  All I can say is try and take one day at a time just get through the day I don't even think about tomorrow. Not being able to see them or talk to him again is one of the hardest things to get your head around I still haven't been able to do that and I'm four months in front of you I never understand why she had to die! We were a perfect little family I try to believe she is pain-free now and is looking down on me waiting for me to come to her again but the last promise I gave her a look after the children and I'll be in heaven when you finished looking after the children love you forever that was her last words to me. Life is so cruel Me and the boys woke up to mummy's grave stone every day even the two-year-old knows about mummy's grave mummy is in heaven what normal two-year-old has to deal with things like this?  But somehow we must move forward 

Oh Chris that's just heartbreaking, poor children aswell why does this have to happen ? Other people have said to just take each day , I can't help myself I torture myself with he won't be here at Christmas etc etc , yes I think the hardest thing is that it's so final and they are just gone , I haven't had the funeral yet I'm freakish it and don't know how I'm going to get through it I don't want to say good bye to him it's just the most horrendous thing and the feeling of complete despair I feel like I need to run somewhere to find him like I can't accept he's not here . 

I didn't have a last conversation with him , he was on oxygen and he wasn't talking much at all the last couple of days but he was responding to me , I was with him when he passed and I just told him all the things I needed to say he was always telling me how much he loved me and I was his soulmate best friend just everything so I already knew . I just don't know how I will move forward I can't begin to imagine my life without him 

I didn't have a last conversation with him , he was on oxygen and he wasn't talking much at all the last couple of days but he was responding to me , I was with him when he passed and I just told him all the things I needed to say he was always telling me how much he loved me and I was his soulmate best friend just everything so I already knew . I just don't know how I will move forward I can't begin to imagine my life without him