Hello Broxiebabe85

I'm sorry to hear that you're still struggling with the loss of your Dad. Grief is a natural process but it can be devastating and for some people, it can take considerable time to come to terms with things. 

You mention in your post that you've struggled with your mental health since your Dad passed away. I'm presuming that you've spoken with your GP about this but if not I'd really encourage you to speak to them and let them know what's been going on for you. I'm sure they will be able to offer you some support in this area. 

You may also want to get in touch with an organisation called Cruse. They're a bereavement charity that offers counselling support to those who have lost a loved one. They will certainly be able to support you with your journey through grief. 

I hope that this helps. 

Best wishes, 
Jenn
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Hello. 
I lost my lovely dad in March 2019, Monday will be two years. 
He was 58 and he died exactly two weeks before I gave birth to his first grandchild, it was so cruel, he had been so excited. 
It was a short battle of 7 months, 5 of which we thought he would be fine so a shock and quick in the end. 
We had bought our wedding forward for him, maybe expecting him to be unwell, but certainly to be here. So 5 months after he died I had a small baby and a big white wedding. I won't lie, my heart wasn't in it, it was too soon, but I had promised my dad I would still do it. Without my dad the big wedding I'd always dreamt of meant nothing anymore and if it hadn't been booked I probably wouldn't have done it, but i would have felt the same then or now. I certainly had my moments, but the day was such a whirlwind that I did enjoy it as I barely had time to think. 
I think about him every single day, of course the tears are less and I guess I just try and block out what has happened, but I just don't think it will ever go away because how can you stop thinking about someone you wish was here so much. 
Sometimes I wish I had seen a counsellor, but I didn't want to sit down with someone that had 'coping techniques', but had no idea how I actually felt, because this has been the worst feeling in the world, you can't even describe it. 
 

sorry I haven't actually helped, just wanted you to know you're not alone x