Hiya,

I am so so so sorry to hear this. Losing a dad is so so painful and an experience I hate to say that I have too.

I lost my extremely brave and selfless Dad in October 2020 after a 2 week diagnosis of a very rare cancer at only 58 years old. I am devestated beyond belief and finding life so tough without him. I was due to get married in April 2021 and my amazing dad was to give me away. It's too painful for me so we have made the decision to cancel it. Life is just so so cruel.

Confide in who you can. I know what you mean about talking to your family, you feel you have to be the strength but believe me when I say it is ok to have bad days, it's ok to cry and shout and ok to let it all out. This forum is great and so many people with different experience. I have found such comfort in it. 
 

I still feel like my dad is coming back. I feel like he is going to walk through the gate at 4.30 from work each night and each night I find it hard to accept that won't happen.

its such early days but I am sure in tIme there feelings will get easier and our dads will live on in everything we do. Your little girl will still have the most special grandad who loves her very much. 
 

take care at this difficult time x

Hey,   I am so so sorry to hear that!!   I know it must be so hard and i totally understand why you's decided to cancel the wedding.     Whenever you choose to go through with it.  Just know he may not be physically walking you down the aisle but he most certainly will be there with you.  Watching on proud as anything!  
 

Just talking to my dad has helped me loads,  you know whether i fully believe in the fact he can hear me or not i just find it peaceful.     
 

I do agree i think these forums are an amazing place for people to come and talk about things.   Its crazy how many people are going through different situations but somehow it all connects and allows everyone to share their thoughts and memories. 
 

Take care as well and whenever the time comes,  i hope you have an amazing wedding x

Hey,   I am so so sorry to hear that!!   I know it must be so hard and i totally understand why you's decided to cancel the wedding.     Whenever you choose to go through with it.  Just know he may not be physically walking you down the aisle but he most certainly will be there with you.  Watching on proud as anything!  
 

Just talking to my dad has helped me loads,  you know whether i fully believe in the fact he can hear me or not i just find it peaceful.     
 

I do agree i think these forums are an amazing place for people to come and talk about things.   Its crazy how many people are going through different situations but somehow it all connects and allows everyone to share their thoughts and memories. 
 

Take care as well and whenever the time comes,  i hope you have an amazing wedding x