I've had a hard day trying to home school but don't no any of my wife password s for the computer  but we did get it sorted  I don't think I can do this  every body  just want to be with my wife! Yes I love my boys big time i really do  just don't want this life anymore  I want what I had x

Well that's good you are still working and keeping yourself busy.

My morning and afternoon was really hard to be honest - plenty of crying. The evenings seem to be better and my parents are a good distraction.

Not managed to take a walk as my elderly parents are very fearful about me getting too close to anyone.

I hope you are ok.

Xx

Yes I know what you mean - Rossella handled everything and i am having to remember the passwords too. She was a great organizer.

I want what i had too - only now do i truly realise how incredibly lucky i was and how perfect a partner i had.

My life was enriched.

Almost through another day xx

Im 6 months in and still have days where im inconsolable.

It comes in waves has time moves on. Good and bad days if ya know what i mean. 

Its part of grieving especially for you its very early days.

Glad you have company of your parents and you are not alone  

Take one day at a time thats how im getting through.

take care

 I try to go day by day but it's getting so much harder  not better  I feel your pain you had a great life just like me  and now it's all over. I no both girls will be saying come on don't give up on your life  but it's f ing hard 

I lost my wife 2 yrs ago through cancer I still have my moments of tears and anguish did I do enough for her in the last hours of her life did I tell her I loved her?I really can't remember but it does ease with time you think your pain will never end but it does it will never disappear altogether but as I said it will get easier don't keep your pain to yourself they say time is a great healer this is true but sharing with someone close can help....Don't be afraid to let your grief show it's not wrong to cry

Good luck on your journey

Hi how are you today. I have read some of the tail end of this thread and it is desperately sad what you are going through.

My lovely wife died in June 2018 so I'm a little way down this uneviable path. I won't say it is "any better" because this grief is something that you carry with you. It's the missing and loneliness that gets to me, and the music that can in a way be happy/sad.

Remember that grief isn't forever but love is.

Chris xx

That is so true, it never goes away but think as time goes on you learn to adapt and have to learn to live on your own. Its not easy but life goes on.

I was happily married for 36 years, was childhood sweathearts  then suddenly on my own, i think of his words telling me i will get through it because im strong and independent, still very hard.

take care and keep going 

That is so true Chris. You are a couple years  further down the line and i understand what you are saying. It is tea time onwards thats worse for me, because through the day we was both at work so i can still keep busy in the day. 

Now i come home to a empty dark house and i hate it. It is very lonely and the music gets me everytime. Ian loved music and knew just about every record ever made so he always had something belting out and him singing along its them times i so miss.

Yes love is forever and we will never forget our loved ones. 

Keep going, take care 

Debbie x  

Hi Debbie,

Have you ever had bereavement counselling and if you did how did you find it? I find listening to music a double edged sword either happy or sad. I understand what you say about an empty house.....my son who lives with me was away for a week last year and it was strange and lonely and quite upsetting. I can't begin to know what it is like for you on a permanent basis.

If you want to contact me please DM me.

Chris x