Hi 

I'm so sorry for your recent loss!

i lost my mother to cancer of unknown primary 27/11/18 I was only 18 years old. I felt so alone once this had happened as it happened so quickly and tragically. I found many ways of coping with my loss but talking about my grief to others who cooks relate to me really helped as they could understand my rollercoaster of emotions! 

hope you are doing okay

Gabriella x 
 

So nice to meet you Gabriella! I read your post and cried - no one should lose a mother so young. I am so sorry. 

Yes it does help me to talk here and I don't feel I have to hold anything back. The loneliness and emptiness is an awful thing to cope with. I lost my 'rock' and it's crushing.

Do you still have the rollercoaster? Are you coping better?

I am finding ways of coping but I fear that all I am doing is putting walls and barriers up to the emotions and I feel like my emotions are numbing. They are just as raw as ever when a wall cracks.

I think the more I cry the better as I am sure it needs to come out and there is alot to come out.

How was your week?

Rich xx

Thankyou Chris! That helps me and made me cry.

I must remember this - you are so right! 

Xx

Good glad it made you cry mate it the truth  she loves you  x

Thanks mate  xx

I need you mate  we have more days to get through before we can finally say we've made it the grief has gone until then mate we keep going x

Chris, how are you today mate? - I wasn't feeling so good yesterday. I walk down the street and always get the feeling I am missing something - a big absence in my life. Absence .......

Hope you are ok?

Xx

I've sent are you a friend request for private message  
 Im ok today last week has my worst by far  but still did everything for the boys!  I'm trying to be the best dad ever   I'm sure Martyne is watching me  so can't let her down  I want her to love me even more  if she ever could  by going a great job for our children! I miss her so much  and  my life  but one day I will be with her I have to be  we were so much in love   There has to be more  x

I'm ok mate I sent a message to my self by mistake for you hope you see it  have a look if you can't are right it again x

Are you ok today?

Not too bad today mate - everything still seems as unreal as it did a month ago.

You?

Hi Richard it's Chris I've lost you on WhatsApp hope you're okay

Hi Richard it's Chris I've lost you on WhatsApp hope you're okay