I lost my wife to cancer recently and I have never felt so alone. I am experiencing all kinds of extreme emotions from grief to guilt. I really want to connect and talk to others who have been through this terrible period.
i lost my mother to cancer of unknown primary 27/11/18 I was only 18 years old. I felt so alone once this had happened as it happened so quickly and tragically. I found many ways of coping with my loss but talking about my grief to others who cooks relate to me really helped as they could understand my rollercoaster of emotions!
So nice to meet you Gabriella! I read your post and cried - no one should lose a mother so young. I am so sorry.
Yes it does help me to talk here and I don't feel I have to hold anything back. The loneliness and emptiness is an awful thing to cope with. I lost my 'rock' and it's crushing.
Do you still have the rollercoaster? Are you coping better?
I am finding ways of coping but I fear that all I am doing is putting walls and barriers up to the emotions and I feel like my emotions are numbing. They are just as raw as ever when a wall cracks.
I think the more I cry the better as I am sure it needs to come out and there is alot to come out.
We will get through this there has to be light at the end of the tunnel Myself and my eldest boy were just on YouTube listening to a Matt Fraser medium and everything you were saying about the other side seems amazing and it's kind of giving me a little bit of confidence x
Go and have a little look mate you only need to do about five minutes and then all the questions we had are there it's about the third one down he sat in his office with a globe and looks like a big boat behind him
I watched a few of the videos of the medium - it would be great to see him and get a reading! I was seriously thinking about seeing a medium but can't do it now.
I keep looking back with 'hindsight' and replaying everything as the perfect human being. I am reliving every moment - it's like I'm really back there acting it all out again.
I've sent are you a friend request for private message Im ok today last week has my worst by far but still did everything for the boys! I'm trying to be the best dad ever I'm sure Martyne is watching me so can't let her down I want her to love me even more if she ever could by going a great job for our children! I miss her so much and my life but one day I will be with her I have to be we were so much in love There has to be more x
