I lost my wife to cancer recently and I have never felt so alone. I am experiencing all kinds of extreme emotions from grief to guilt. I really want to connect and talk to others who have been through this terrible period.
i lost my mother to cancer of unknown primary 27/11/18 I was only 18 years old. I felt so alone once this had happened as it happened so quickly and tragically. I found many ways of coping with my loss but talking about my grief to others who cooks relate to me really helped as they could understand my rollercoaster of emotions!
So nice to meet you Gabriella! I read your post and cried - no one should lose a mother so young. I am so sorry.
Yes it does help me to talk here and I don't feel I have to hold anything back. The loneliness and emptiness is an awful thing to cope with. I lost my 'rock' and it's crushing.
Do you still have the rollercoaster? Are you coping better?
I am finding ways of coping but I fear that all I am doing is putting walls and barriers up to the emotions and I feel like my emotions are numbing. They are just as raw as ever when a wall cracks.
I think the more I cry the better as I am sure it needs to come out and there is alot to come out.
Go and have a little look mate you only need to do about five minutes and then all the questions we had are there it's about the third one down he sat in his office with a globe and looks like a big boat behind him
I watched a few of the videos of the medium - it would be great to see him and get a reading! I was seriously thinking about seeing a medium but can't do it now.
I keep looking back with 'hindsight' and replaying everything as the perfect human being. I am reliving every moment - it's like I'm really back there acting it all out again.
Not a good day so far - been talking to her alot. I have changed alot since Rossella passed. Feel much more compassionate with so much love to give - unrepressed. This is the man I should have been always with her. She gave everything to me.
I completely understand what you're saying mate that's true I think I feel the same but my wife loved me for being me so I guess that means she love the good me I'm the bad me it's hard but I don't think you have to beat yourself up so much . Rossella loves you /loved you you don't ever have to question that you were ment to be in love forever and you will be ! Your say to me there was times when I could've done this I could've done that and when it really matters does the fact that you didn't do something change it anyway no? If you died and rosella lived would she be questioning how much you love her no ! U2 were meant to be together and you were ? The hard thing is to understand why she has gone but she has cancer killed are wives mate That is the stage you need to be at never question the love you've had for each other please do that mate she loved you she loves you she loves you she loves she is sitting on your shoulder watching everything you do that's definitely love if you ask me ?
I completely understand what you're saying mate that's true I think I feel the same but my wife loved me for being me so I guess that means she love the good me I'm the bad me it's hard but I don't think you have to beat yourself up so much . Rossella loves you /loved you you don't ever have to question that you were ment to be in love forever and you will be ! Your say to me there was times when I could've done this I could've done that and when it really matters does the fact that you didn't do something change it anyway no? If you died and rosella lived would she be questioning how much you love her no ! U2 were meant to be together and you were ? The hard thing is to understand why she has gone but she has cancer killed are wives mate That is the stage you need to be at never question the love you've had for each other please do that mate she loved you she loves you she loves you she loves she is sitting on your shoulder watching everything you do that's definitely love if you ask me ?
Chris, how are you today mate? - I wasn't feeling so good yesterday. I walk down the street and always get the feeling I am missing something - a big absence in my life. Absence .......
