Sorry for your loss

I lost my fiancé 5 weeks after diagnosis of metastatic pancreatic cancer, he was 37. 
 

Talking does help while it makes me upset initially I feel better for it. 
 

it might be nice to get some memory bears made using your wife's clothing for the children? It's something I plan to do, I've ordered a key ring for me and his mum with his handwriting on from birthday cards he sent me. 
 

memory jars sound lovely print off pictures of her favourite perfume would be nice. 

Hello thank you very much for having the time  to read my message and just send me a text I'm also sorry for your loss memory bears Sounds a good idea like the sound of that! It's so hard To grieve and look after the boys I just have to do my best and hope my wife is Proud of everything I'm doing  even if that all it seems to be is crying at the moment . I know it's a really stupid question but are you coping okay it's so hard to loose your lover best friend your everything so fast  that's what I'm struggling on with at The moment  x

Thank you yes she was a great person and so are you and Lewis! Lewis sounds so much like my wife in so many ways  keeping strong for us! I feel the same  about sorting out the funeral it makes it more and more real I completely understand. I seem to be a real mess today 

Yes I find I have a good day with no tears (yesterday) and then today tears staying in bed poor appetite, headaches and neck aches!
Hopefully better tomorrow, my brother in law is having a cocktail making evening (a well chosen Christmas present from me and Lewis) and seeing his side of the family. 

Have fun I feel better when I'm with my wife side of the  family 

Had a better day today had a lovely dream I'm sure it was my wife saying be strong I will all love you so I went to the beach to pick up shells like mummy used to do then once and home had to sort out pics for the funeral worst  job yet so now I'm crying again silly me 

That's good, I've had no dreams of Lewis but I did have a robin at my lounge window this afternoon. I live in a first floor flat and I have bird feeders on the windows it's only the past couple of weeks I've noticed a robin. 

I've made a start taking the Christmas decorations down. 

That was my job for today  cryed all day I had a really bad day today  not going to get better any time soon   Glad you seen a robin  your dream will come  trust me you just want a new dream ever night like me and that dont happen  not yet anyway 

Yes I've been tearful too 

I'm going to try to get a gp appointment tomorrow hopefully for some sleeping tablets, I'm awake until like 3 in the morning and I'm so tired throughout the day I just can't be bothered to do anything. 
 

ive bought a couple of books someone recommended me, it's called the language of loss the lady said it helped her 

I got a book called life on the other side  to painful to read  I have tried  have to try again soon . I've been a little better at sleeping  but walk and walk all day as I feel I have to do something .good idea to see a doctor  as you have to look after yourself  even if we don't want to 

I've been reading Rio Ferdinands book good book for me  

Hope your felling a little better today? I'm ok just really bad in the morning s feels like a steam train as hit me! But I'm ok and I try to go on any way had  more discussions about the funeral today  felt like *** but strangely  Ok about it as it   We doing what she wants  I love that girl so much x just sent this to my self what a idiot

Hope your felling a little better today? I'm ok just really bad in the morning s feels like a steam train as hit me! But I'm ok and I try to go on any way had  more discussions about the funeral today  felt like *** but strangely  Ok about it as it   We doing what she wants  I love that girl so much x just sent this to my self what a idiot