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Lost my mum

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First time post but I need to know I'm not alone.

I just watched the full monty on itv and I can't help but reflect on how much I miss my mum. I lost my mum just over a year ago she was diagnosed with terminal cancer and lost her life within a week of diagnosis. Does the pain ever get any easier? I miss her so much it's unreal. She was my best friend and my rock and everyday I go to pick up the phone to call her and tell her something new but she's not there and this overwhelming sadness comes over me. 
 

It was all such a blur and although I spent every last minute holding her hand I still feel like there are things left unsaid and wonder if she ever knew how much she meant to me and my children. I have never known this grief and I just feel like it's never gonna get any easier. I just feel like she's not with me anymore and I am starting to worry that I might forget her face and how it felt to have a good old mum cuddle. There are so many things that I want to tell her and this year has been so hard without her. Does it ever get any easier? 

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    Hi,

    I'm so sorry you are struggling so much, its not fair anyone has to hurt this way. In my experience, it does get better, but not the way you think. Losing them hurts the same, it always will, but what happenes is instead of when you think of them, remembering you lost them, you start to remember that you had them, and your mind tends to default to a smile when you think of them instead of the pain of losing them.

    You won't ever forget her face, or what her hugs felt like, or the way she sounded or even smelt, I never have, whether i lost someone years or days ago I have always remembered those important things just as vividly. they are treasures even my subconcious knows are too precious to lose, and so does yours.

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    Hi,

    I'm so sorry you are struggling so much, its not fair anyone has to hurt this way. In my experience, it does get better, but not the way you think. Losing them hurts the same, it always will, but what happenes is instead of when you think of them, remembering you lost them, you start to remember that you had them, and your mind tends to default to a smile when you think of them instead of the pain of losing them.

    You won't ever forget her face, or what her hugs felt like, or the way she sounded or even smelt, I never have, whether i lost someone years or days ago I have always remembered those important things just as vividly. they are treasures even my subconcious knows are too precious to lose, and so does yours.

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