Hi there,

sorry to hear about your loss. I too lost my precious son only couple of weeks ago. This lethal pancreatic cancer took him away. There was no sign and symptoms, he was eating healthy, exercising an hour everyday, working full time. Only two weeks history of back pain, one week of shortness of breath and palpitation, fourth week he was admitted to hospital right after a week my Sunny died in my arm. He was so strong and positive, kept telling me I'll fight for it even if it's cancer. 

we were living together, my daughter moved to Scotland last year with her boyfriend. My son was my best friend, we shared music, cooking, we use to take turn in travelling as we both love travelling around the world. 
he was kind and gentle person, health conscious, no alcohol, no cigarettes, no fizzy drinks. I'm still in state of shock that my child has taken away so sudden so young.

im waiting for counselling from cruise bereavement support, as I'm in such a unbearable pain, finding difficult to cope. Please ring cruise bereavement support or helpline. They're supportive.

i know only the people who lost their loved one knows the feelings and pain.

look after yourself 

a grieving mother

Ash
 

I wish I had the answer for you, and for myself. 
 

Our lives shattered 18 months ago when my fit, healthy dad died of oesophagus cancer at 58. Life is so so cruel. 
 

I know somewhere along the line something has changed as I don't hysterically cry every day like the beginning, I guess that's the 'learn to live with it part'. 
Life has passed me by, I gave birth to their first grandchild 2 weeks after he went to sleep, went ahead with my wedding that had been bought forward for him and my sister had her first baby who was in intensive care for 6 weeks all in the same year. 
 

I think about him every single day, I miss him terribly and I just can't imagine a whole life without him. 
Some childish part of me bargains with whoever it is up there that says who stays and goes that I will do absolutely anything to have him back. 
 

I'm not religious at all, but I did see a medium and I truly believe he is here and we will see him again.