I lost my husband, who was also my best friend of 54 years, yesterday to a rare type of cancer - neuroendocrin.  My husband was the picture of health 6 weeks ago and now he has gone.  My heart has been broken into a million pieces.  I thought we would grow very old together but unfortunately this was not meant to be.  I have one son who has worked with his Dad since leaving school.  They are more like best friends than Dad/Son.  He is absolutely broken.  Being a mum it has always been my mission to never let anything or anyone hurt my son but I feel completely helpless as I cannot take his pain away.  If tears would bring my husband back then he would be sitting on the sofa now beside me watching tv and holding my hand.  Instead I am looking for comfort on a laptop - I just do not know how life goes on when you have lost the love of your life.