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Altea
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I lost my husband, who was also my best friend of 54 years, yesterday to a rare type of cancer - neuroendocrin.  My husband was the picture of health 6 weeks ago and now he has gone.  My heart has been broken into a million pieces.  I thought we would grow very old together but unfortunately this was not meant to be.  I have one son who has worked with his Dad since leaving school.  They are more like best friends than Dad/Son.  He is absolutely broken.  Being a mum it has always been my mission to never let anything or anyone hurt my son but I feel completely helpless as I cannot take his pain away.  If tears would bring my husband back then he would be sitting on the sofa now beside me watching tv and holding my hand.  Instead I am looking for comfort on a laptop - I just do not know how life goes on when you have lost the love of your life.

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    Thank you Moonpuddle for being so kind to reply.

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    Hello Altea

    i am sorry that you and your son are going through

    this .

    It must be have be very traumatic for you both to lose your husband in such a short time .

    All I can say is you may find some small  comfort while on your laptop reading that other people have suffered or are suffering like you .

    i lost my partner of over 30 years ,a month ago to pancreatic cancer . I am still reeling like you from the trauma of events and loss of the future we planned together .

    All the things that people say about taking care of yourself will help .

    Msking sure you try to eat , sleep and walks out if you can .

    i am lucky to have a dog which makes me go out . That really helps me .

    First I  chose times when I wouldn't meet people at first so I didn't cry if anyone we knew spoke to me .

    Now it's getting a bit easier and I can face

    people .

    Looking after your self will also help you be

    strong  to support your son .
    My daughter is a teenager so I'm just supporting her by listening , chatting about the fun times and laughing at the things Dad did .
    Keeping a routine of normal life has helped her

    of course it will be so hard for your son because he worked with your husband .

    Be kind to yourselves and do what you can when you feel like it and accept help if it's offered .

    Thinking of you.

    ksg 

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

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    Dear KSG

    Thank you so much for your kind words.  I too have a dog and I agree with you, it is hard explaining to people that my husband has left.   Instead of walking him close to home  I get in the car and head for the woods and then cry all the way round the walk.

    I'm sending all my love to you and you daughter.

    Luv

    xx

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    I just want to say I'm so sorry for both of your losses. 

    It's such a devastating disease. I hope you can both find comfort knowing how much you loved your husbands and how much they loved you and your family xx 

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    Dear Altea, reading of your sad loss I too am thinking of you and sending virtual warm hugs.  Speaking from my own experience the sadness will eventually lessen but the wonderful memories you all shared will remain with you forever.  You have your son and the fact that he and his dad were best friends must be such a comfort.

    Take care of yourselves.  Be kind to yourselves and don't expect too much of yourselves.  Each day will be different.  Much love to you bothxx

     

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