Such a heartfelt and beautiful piece of writing, yet so sad too.

Started me off crying too. Great raw blubs... Got to stay positive but oh how our losses hurt. Love, hugs and all the hope I can give for better luck in the on-going Cancer fights. 

You are all far braver than me. So very very brave, especially Jess.

Love Sunny xx

Hi there Sunny ...

Wer all scared stiff at times hunny ... but I've learned to let it all out ... and get back on track the following day ... it's not my poem, but one I've kept for a while ...

Your so right and thank you, Jess was totally awsome ... no way could I have been half as brave as her .. just wish I'd had a last hug ... but she kicked cancer right to the end , with a smile that was second to none ... and I'm taking that smile with me ...

I'm just going through the angry stage right now, as for a year her Dr on many occasions said it was iron deficiency and fobbed her off .. they never even tested for it ... caught sooner who knows ... but it was A and E that knew what it was ... 

So don't underestimate yourself sunny ... you've come a long way....  big hugs to everyone touched by cancer ....Chrissie 

Hi Chrissie,

So sorry to hear of the blue days... but I'd have been surprised if you hadn't been hit with strong grief torrents. Anger is always a difficult stage. It's one I've been through even without doctor's making mistakes. I've learnt not to ask "what if?" anymore except where there's hope of making changes for the better. It's good you've posted your concern. People need to be more aware sometimes without being frightened. And that can be a difficult line to tread.

I haven't been able to say goodbye to any of the people I lost. Different cruel circumstances across decades – different hospital rules. It makes grieving that bit harder, I feel. 

Look after yourself Chrissie. Lots of TLC - it's what Jess would want. It's okay to keep on boxing that doctor though just so long as it's in your dreams.  

Sending you big virtual hugs. Love Sunny xx

Hi Chrissie,

So sorry to hear of the blue days... but I'd have been surprised if you hadn't been hit with strong grief torrents. Anger is always a difficult stage. It's one I've been through even without doctor's making mistakes. I've learnt not to ask "what if?" anymore except where there's hope of making changes for the better. It's good you've posted your concern. People need to be more aware sometimes without being frightened. And that can be a difficult line to tread.

I haven't been able to say goodbye to any of the people I lost. Different cruel circumstances across decades – different hospital rules. It makes grieving that bit harder, I feel. 

Look after yourself Chrissie. Lots of TLC - it's what Jess would want. It's okay to keep on boxing that doctor though just so long as it's in your dreams.  

Sending you big virtual hugs. Love Sunny xx